late night update!
well lots has happened since the last time ive updated..lol im too lazy to type everything out. so ill just list..
*homecomming was AWESOME! "Annabell Lee" and "A Rose For Emily" kicked major ass at amanda's party! it was really two awesome performances! umm we beat Greensburg by two Woo woo..
*Jv volleyball is doing really good and varsity..well they arent haha
*things in my love life are way way way confusing! im just flat out confizzled!!!!
umm i know more has happened..but im really too tired to think of it all. it doesnt really matter anyways lol haha
friday was so much fun! i went out with bridget and brandi, got in ALOT of trouble haha! lets see...we stole traffic cones, tried to steal reflectors from the road, we did doughnuts in the park, stole some signs, toilet papered bridgets car, raced on the interstate, went hill hoppin, AND almost got arrested!! fun times!
ok the arrested story...ok last week Pooter, David, and eric got kicked out of school because they threw a burrito in Mrs. Hensel's face at Taco Bell in oxford (hahahahahaha!!!) and like everyone is really pissed off because it was in a different state and off school property...so they shouldnt get busted! so everyone has made like shirts and signs that say "Free Pooter and David!!" and like the whole school is in an uproar..well mrs. hensel is my neighbor..so like me bridget and brandi went to her house (we were gonna toilet paper it) but we started doin burnouts and stuff in front of her house and shit and then brent campbell (hes a cop) gets in his truck and like hunts us down and pulls us over..well he KNEW it was us..but he was like "get home now!" so we did hahaha and then today at school we all got in trouble because Hensel took it to the office or whatever..so yeah we're gonna get in big trouble for "harassment" how gay is that??? im sorry, even though its bad, i think its HILARIOUS! but anways...
im not really likin where i work...theres this one girl there that HATES me and idk why..i think cuz my sister. but saturday was hell! we got slammed and i was just gettin so frustrated! sunday was ok though..i worked with this one girl and i really like her, shes cool. Im actually gettin good at makin sandwiches haha!
mmm saturday i went to Bee's...that was fun, we had fun just hangin out...
mmm i got home on sunday to really bad news. Me and my mom are barely on speaking terms right now. Ive never felt so far apart from my mom in my life! I feel akward when i talk to her and everything...idk what to do or say anymore. I dont wanna be a disappointment but right now thats how shes making me feel...she said something to me about this being "disturbing" and it really hurt..its just not looking good right now...
and now everything is all messed up again. im like torn between liking two people. I like one ALOT, I love them..but im so pressured into being with the other person. I want to make everyone happy but then again i need to look out for my happiness too...I see all these people at school who have someone..and I just need that. I need to have someone HERE...but if i did that then i'd be lying to myself because i wouldnt be with the one i truely love. ahh its just all so confusing. Im trying to stay positive but idk..it just sux.i just wish the one i loved could be here with me, all the time, and not 2 hours away...and i just wish..ahh its just all too confusing and messy to explain..its not like anyone would understand me anyways..
I love you but i feel as if you should be with someone else...you act like you like other people and it sounds like they like you too..so why are you so stuck on me? it'd be easier with them you know..
but hmm...i just have so much to say but when it comes time to say it, i just go blank...oh well...it'll all be better in the end, i just gotta keep the faith and live everyday as it comes.
we play east central tomorrow..i really hope we win, i really really hate that school lol they are our biggest rivals GRRR!!!
nite ya'll
-Vanessa
has anyone ever TRIED to make you jealous? Like they just tell you everything they do with all these people just to make you feel like you have no life? its sad..it doesnt make me jealous it just makes me annoyed cuz i find myself stepping back and looking at my life and saying "wow my life really is boring!"..i shouldnt have to feel like im competing to have the more interesting life out of the two of us..i should enjoy my life how it goes and not wish it was like someone elses. Its just hard when its rubbed in your face like everyday!