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Sooo....
omg, i've just casually looked at the photos i've got on my wall near my desk, and theres one of bec, rich, karen and si at homelands, and si is almost unrecognisable. his hair is much much shorter than it is now, and he looks very different...older too. and very unimpressed. that was the day i spent in pencester with bec and karen, when really i should have been in maths, on a friday afternoon. we got a picnic from somerfield, and ate strawberries and cream seductively. then we went back to becs and watched something...i think it was labyrinth. ohhhhhhhhhh blimey, i remember that night....me bec and karen all decided we would wear mini skirts, and that was the night i first met mel! oh my. and there was loads of fog around, and some people had to get the train over, but we all got lifts home in trevs van, and chris lamb was in claire's car, on the phone to bec, who was in the van, and telling her to insult trev...wow. i think this was all the same night. it was so long ago, christ. jeez, it was, as i was still at school.
thats really weird, just looking at one photo can bring all that back. its been up on my wall since i decorated, and i see it every day, but most photos you look at and just see what is there, you dont think about the stories behind them. it also kind of sums up my mood at the moment, i've been reminiscing about the last few years a lot tonight. how things have changed, and how things are going to change even more. i still feel like i should be seventeen, i dont have a clue about what i want at the moment, and i'm meant to be really mature and everything, and be looking forward to the next step in life, going to uni, but really all i want to do is rewind 2 years. then everyone would still be around, and all we did was go to the pub and get drunk, and things seemed much simpler. of course at the time they werent, but thinking back, i only ever remember the good things, i dont seem to remember all the problems of the time.
i really didnt expect this entry to turn out like this, i was just going to moan about the fact i havent had a bath for over a year now. i didnt have any in aus, and since being back in this new house, i could have had one, but it would have meant turning on the immersion, and waiting for enough water to warm up to fill our huge bath with lovely hot water, when having a shower is just so much easier. i havent minded before, but i've just had the urge to have a long hot bath with loads of bubbles and nice smelling products, then get into clean pjs and get into a freshly made bed and read for ages. i can do the last two, but it wont be the same.
its been over a year since i left for aus, so now every day i'll be thinking ' a year ago today i did this. a year ago today i did that. a year ago today i planted 70 trees in the rain, and pulled up approximately 4 tonnes of boneseed.' i miss weeding boneseed actually, as far as weeds go, they were one of the best. easy to pull up, and satisfying to chop down. i know i shouldnt think like that, but there is so little else to focus on, its hard not to.
i spent a lovely day with laura today, i told her all about reading, and we sat and ate baguettes on the beach for ages in the sun, i enjoyed it. i dont spend nearly enough time with her i dont think.
italy was really nice, i had a great time, and did not want to come home, but didnt have much of a choice in that matter. i honestly think that i'll emigrate when i'm older, the thought of living in england if its anything like it is now when i'm older just fills me with dread. i've probably got an exaggerated view of just how bad it is because i read the daily express, who are extremely negative, biased and opinionated, and determined to find as much wrong with everything they possibly can. i dont even like the paper, but my dad buys it every day for the crossword, and i just pick it up and flick through it when i'm bored. then that puts me in a bad mood, but i never learn. but yeah, hopefully when i'm older i'll be living in aus with jon...i can dream.
there really is nothing of importance or interest in this, but it was nice to get all my thoughts out somewhere.
omg, i've just casually looked at the photos i've got on my wall near my desk, and theres one of bec, rich, karen and si at homelands, and si is almost unrecognisable. his hair is much much shorter than it is now, and he looks very different...older too. and very unimpressed. that was the day i spent in pencester with bec and karen, when really i should have been in maths, on a friday afternoon. we got a picnic from somerfield, and ate strawberries and cream seductively. then we went back to becs and watched something...i think it was labyrinth. ohhhhhhhhhh blimey, i remember that night....me bec and karen all decided we would wear mini skirts, and that was the night i first met mel! oh my. and there was loads of fog around, and some people had to get the train over, but we all got lifts home in trevs van, and chris lamb was in claire's car, on the phone to bec, who was in the van, and telling her to insult trev...wow. i think this was all the same night. it was so long ago, christ. jeez, it was, as i was still at school.
thats really weird, just looking at one photo can bring all that back. its been up on my wall since i decorated, and i see it every day, but most photos you look at and just see what is there, you dont think about the stories behind them. it also kind of sums up my mood at the moment, i've been reminiscing about the last few years a lot tonight. how things have changed, and how things are going to change even more. i still feel like i should be seventeen, i dont have a clue about what i want at the moment, and i'm meant to be really mature and everything, and be looking forward to the next step in life, going to uni, but really all i want to do is rewind 2 years. then everyone would still be around, and all we did was go to the pub and get drunk, and things seemed much simpler. of course at the time they werent, but thinking back, i only ever remember the good things, i dont seem to remember all the problems of the time.
i really didnt expect this entry to turn out like this, i was just going to moan about the fact i havent had a bath for over a year now. i didnt have any in aus, and since being back in this new house, i could have had one, but it would have meant turning on the immersion, and waiting for enough water to warm up to fill our huge bath with lovely hot water, when having a shower is just so much easier. i havent minded before, but i've just had the urge to have a long hot bath with loads of bubbles and nice smelling products, then get into clean pjs and get into a freshly made bed and read for ages. i can do the last two, but it wont be the same.
its been over a year since i left for aus, so now every day i'll be thinking ' a year ago today i did this. a year ago today i did that. a year ago today i planted 70 trees in the rain, and pulled up approximately 4 tonnes of boneseed.' i miss weeding boneseed actually, as far as weeds go, they were one of the best. easy to pull up, and satisfying to chop down. i know i shouldnt think like that, but there is so little else to focus on, its hard not to.
i spent a lovely day with laura today, i told her all about reading, and we sat and ate baguettes on the beach for ages in the sun, i enjoyed it. i dont spend nearly enough time with her i dont think.
italy was really nice, i had a great time, and did not want to come home, but didnt have much of a choice in that matter. i honestly think that i'll emigrate when i'm older, the thought of living in england if its anything like it is now when i'm older just fills me with dread. i've probably got an exaggerated view of just how bad it is because i read the daily express, who are extremely negative, biased and opinionated, and determined to find as much wrong with everything they possibly can. i dont even like the paper, but my dad buys it every day for the crossword, and i just pick it up and flick through it when i'm bored. then that puts me in a bad mood, but i never learn. but yeah, hopefully when i'm older i'll be living in aus with jon...i can dream.
there really is nothing of importance or interest in this, but it was nice to get all my thoughts out somewhere.