Sleep Deprived- I haven't lost my mind.... It's already gone.
How can I sleep with the demons plaguing my mind with useless babeling making me feel like I'm jus another useless being stuck in this purgatory of hell? There is a new creature in these woods putting these images in my mind. The images I have blocked out at an early stage in my life. The images that made the doctors study and probe me with their fucking useless machines. Why can't people understand the fact that if you can see it, touch it, smell it, and converse with whatever it is in your mind.... then it is fucking real. These beings.... are real. This disease they are warning my mind about.... is real. And they want me to find the cure for something that doesn't even infact exsist yet except on the silver screen.
I've gotta get out of this house. Problem being it's hard to break threw these walls wearing a straight jacket.
It's my sister's birthday today. 26 years old now. Odd thing is, I'm older then her.
Why is everyone trying to convience me I'm smart? I don't want to be smart. I'm perfectly comfortable in my morbid oddity. I all of a sudden have the urge to draw what I saw last night. problem being, I was never really good at art. Whatever the highest score was, I always got a point below. 14/15... I'd always do the assignment but never fully understood the assignment in the first place.
Problems, problems problems.... Doesn't anyone talk about the good times anymore?
Sure, I'll start first.... I use to work 8-9 hour days 5 days a week. Now, I work 8-9 hour days 4 days a week.... Oh wait, that's not a celebration, that's another problem.
I live a rich life style with my girlfriend... at my parents house.... Oh wait, that's not something to be happy about.
I'm stuck here because I'm comfortable here. I'm stuck here because I'm afraid of everything going on in the world. I'm stuck here because I know if I move forward, I'll leave behind everything I've ever known which isn't much to begin with.... I'm stuck here because this is where I'm comfortable. I'm stuck here because I know I won't be tempted to go to bars and bring home some guy or girl I haven't known. I'm stuck here because I'm a really messed up partier.....
I'll jus shut the fuck up now.... (oooooo sentence enhancer!)
Shannon
I've gotta get out of this house. Problem being it's hard to break threw these walls wearing a straight jacket.
It's my sister's birthday today. 26 years old now. Odd thing is, I'm older then her.
Why is everyone trying to convience me I'm smart? I don't want to be smart. I'm perfectly comfortable in my morbid oddity. I all of a sudden have the urge to draw what I saw last night. problem being, I was never really good at art. Whatever the highest score was, I always got a point below. 14/15... I'd always do the assignment but never fully understood the assignment in the first place.
Problems, problems problems.... Doesn't anyone talk about the good times anymore?
Sure, I'll start first.... I use to work 8-9 hour days 5 days a week. Now, I work 8-9 hour days 4 days a week.... Oh wait, that's not a celebration, that's another problem.
I live a rich life style with my girlfriend... at my parents house.... Oh wait, that's not something to be happy about.
I'm stuck here because I'm comfortable here. I'm stuck here because I'm afraid of everything going on in the world. I'm stuck here because I know if I move forward, I'll leave behind everything I've ever known which isn't much to begin with.... I'm stuck here because this is where I'm comfortable. I'm stuck here because I know I won't be tempted to go to bars and bring home some guy or girl I haven't known. I'm stuck here because I'm a really messed up partier.....
I'll jus shut the fuck up now.... (oooooo sentence enhancer!)
Shannon