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[kiss_n_rain]

todays been really depressing... i had to sing today, it was me and audrey.. so i missed rachels birthday sleepover thing last night because i had to sing this morning, so iw as already kinda down about that, but i got to see sam last ngiht instead which was fun too... this morning i got up got ready.. and it was brecks last sunday i was able to hold tears back for first service but second service was really really hard... once we went into the adult service at the very end for a little farewell thing me anne erica rachel i dont know who else were all crying.. after that we went adn set everything up for the potluck luncheon for Breck and Christy... we all ate, gave breck some hilarious presents.. Ryan and Will played a song, which was hilarious, and very touching haha... then after all of that was done tony was like go give Breck and Christy a hug goodbye and wish them luck and all that jazz.. so i did and i was already about to ball my eyes out and one i hugged breck the tears jsut started flowing, same with christy... jeff was being really sweet he gave me a hug and says if you ever need to talk you know who to talk to, its hard on all of us but especially for you, it truely is really hard for me, and then me and rachel went and found lauren we hugged and cried, im going to miss her alot too, i could tell her anything.. and we got pretty close since shes been staying at my house alot these past few months while breck and christy have been gone... and my grades arent good at all, im just so disappointed, i studied really hard and ended up doing bad... and i talked to my mom a minute ago about them and suprisingly i wasnt lectured... she was actually being understanding, i truely think that my mom and dad switched rolls now my dads the mean bitch and my moms the nice understanding one...

im "working" tomorrow tuesday and thursday, and on wednesday im going to finish my christmas/people birthday shopping...

im out...

lauren

...:::why does this have to be so hard and crushing for me:::...