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I have found that I am awfully jealous of what I can't have. I hate knowing I developed a relationship with someone thats nothing more than a phone call every so often to meet up with each other for only a few variations of activity, yet I hear about his rendez-vous with other girls and deep down I want that. I don't get to do anything and theres nothing I can do about it. Either I should ditch it or change who I am. for some reason I want to cry, though I really shouldn't.