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So im back on here because it seems myspace and facebook and all those other addictions don't quench my need for a good old fashioned venting session.
This week seems to have been way more serious than i'd ever even realised. I wasn't around everyone that much, which im so glad about now. Im sticking to my guns but im not going to go out of my way to make it all awkward etc.
I was on my way home on tuesday, felt fine when i was with people and then i just saw something that reminded me of my grandad, and therefore my nan and just had the biggest break down on the bus. Its 2 months later and it feels like its only just hit me. But then i still don't think its completely sunk in. I keep remembering her but theres someone elses face on her body and its like this person, who if i go to them and hug them, it'll be like hugging her. Bare weird.
I don't think my dad thinks its really affected me, or upset me as much as it has. So i feel like i can't really show how i feel in case he thinks im not being genuine.
Long.
I know not to, and that i really shouldn't.
Nice to be back actually.
x
This week seems to have been way more serious than i'd ever even realised. I wasn't around everyone that much, which im so glad about now. Im sticking to my guns but im not going to go out of my way to make it all awkward etc.
I was on my way home on tuesday, felt fine when i was with people and then i just saw something that reminded me of my grandad, and therefore my nan and just had the biggest break down on the bus. Its 2 months later and it feels like its only just hit me. But then i still don't think its completely sunk in. I keep remembering her but theres someone elses face on her body and its like this person, who if i go to them and hug them, it'll be like hugging her. Bare weird.
I don't think my dad thinks its really affected me, or upset me as much as it has. So i feel like i can't really show how i feel in case he thinks im not being genuine.
Long.
I know not to, and that i really shouldn't.
Nice to be back actually.
x