porbably the last time i can update in a while
i know noone reads this anyway, but im just writing to get some feelings out.
i kinda want to go home, i miss it, i miss my bed, i miss my house, my mommy, my blankie.. everything. it sucks.
and i was loooking at journals and i just read how everyone has like a life and so many friends, what do i have? whats the problem with me? for some reason or other, nobody wants to be my friend. noone ever wants to call me or hang out with me. its like everyone hates me or something and i dont know why. i try my best to be nice to everyone. i just flip out sometimes since i have noone to talk to. i guess thats why kim krezel says im an arrogant bitch. i dont mean to be. i cant be arrogant. i have nothing to be that way about. i might come off that way to her, but i would never mean to act that way. im no better than anyone else, im probably worse. i am a bitch ill give her that. and im sorry to all of those i have hurt, or done something wrong to. i dont know why im apologizing in here, since noone reads it.
the only people who want anything to do with me are dave and matt zamora. matts a really nice guy. i talked to hime for like almost 3 hours last night. hes so easy to talk to about anything. hes always willing to listen, after all that i did to him. hes gonna call me so metime after i come home. im glad he wants to talk to me. i enjoy talking to him.
oh frankie fitz did ask me to hang out with him yesterday, but i wont be home too, and he doenst really want to so i probably never will.
i just want someoone, someone who i can call my friend. who is always there and always wants to hang out and have fun. like the friend i used to have. i used to always have somewhere to go or something to do, coz someone would want to hang out with me. i miss that. i miss hvaing a life. instead now, i just sit at home everyday waiting for dave to get home from work. i like hanging out with dave and all, but i would like a friend to occasionally hang out with.
i guess thats all. im just gonna play with saide now. i love that little cute shit.
i kinda want to go home, i miss it, i miss my bed, i miss my house, my mommy, my blankie.. everything. it sucks.
and i was loooking at journals and i just read how everyone has like a life and so many friends, what do i have? whats the problem with me? for some reason or other, nobody wants to be my friend. noone ever wants to call me or hang out with me. its like everyone hates me or something and i dont know why. i try my best to be nice to everyone. i just flip out sometimes since i have noone to talk to. i guess thats why kim krezel says im an arrogant bitch. i dont mean to be. i cant be arrogant. i have nothing to be that way about. i might come off that way to her, but i would never mean to act that way. im no better than anyone else, im probably worse. i am a bitch ill give her that. and im sorry to all of those i have hurt, or done something wrong to. i dont know why im apologizing in here, since noone reads it.
the only people who want anything to do with me are dave and matt zamora. matts a really nice guy. i talked to hime for like almost 3 hours last night. hes so easy to talk to about anything. hes always willing to listen, after all that i did to him. hes gonna call me so metime after i come home. im glad he wants to talk to me. i enjoy talking to him.
oh frankie fitz did ask me to hang out with him yesterday, but i wont be home too, and he doenst really want to so i probably never will.
i just want someoone, someone who i can call my friend. who is always there and always wants to hang out and have fun. like the friend i used to have. i used to always have somewhere to go or something to do, coz someone would want to hang out with me. i miss that. i miss hvaing a life. instead now, i just sit at home everyday waiting for dave to get home from work. i like hanging out with dave and all, but i would like a friend to occasionally hang out with.
i guess thats all. im just gonna play with saide now. i love that little cute shit.