what a day!
man i have been soooo emotional lately! i feel like the BIGGEST GIRL in the world! sometimes i'm like mid-sentence and i just start to cry........... i was at the store yesterday and i heard this little boy ask his father for Mcdonalds. i looked over to notice that this family wasnt very well off and this little boy had a hearing aid and trouble speaking. as i walked by i heard his father tell him that he had to buy his little sister pants and he wasnt going to be able to eat Mcdonalds today. My heart broke. how i wish things were sooo simple. when our biggest concerns were happy meal toys and we were nieve to the problems of this world and at home. and then i think of my family and i began to cry and thank God for blessing me with such a good home. but its soooo hard to be home and try to forget whats wrong. i wish things could go back to the way they were!
(isn't it funny how you hear a song that reminds you of them and it hurts so much to hear it, but you cant take it off the repeat button. or you see that picture of them and you think of everything you once had and then it hits you, you no longer HAVE it, you only HAD it. looking at them doesnt stir the same emotions and you no longer feel the same way for them. its almost like you've lost all sense of touch, sight, and your simply numb to pain.....your daily routine is just that, a routine, and the person you seem to be on the outside doesnt even reflect the pain and anger you have inside. i thought that things were gonna get easier, people told me they would.)
(isn't it funny how you hear a song that reminds you of them and it hurts so much to hear it, but you cant take it off the repeat button. or you see that picture of them and you think of everything you once had and then it hits you, you no longer HAVE it, you only HAD it. looking at them doesnt stir the same emotions and you no longer feel the same way for them. its almost like you've lost all sense of touch, sight, and your simply numb to pain.....your daily routine is just that, a routine, and the person you seem to be on the outside doesnt even reflect the pain and anger you have inside. i thought that things were gonna get easier, people told me they would.)