(no subject)
somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, & the nasty cafeteria food,
the calls to old friends, the i miss you`s, & the i love you`s, & the what are we doing tonight`s,
somewhere between all of the changing and growing, & the skipping classes,
the studying for tests, & the downright not studying, i forgot .... i forget what it meant to cry . . .
i forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart didn`t make you smart.
& that pretending to be ok doesn`t make you ok. i forgot you just can`t forget the past in fear of the future.
i forgot that you can`t control falling in love. & that you can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned . . .
i learned that i can love. i learned that it`s ok to mess up. & it`s ok to ask for help. & it`s ok to feel like crap.
i learned it`s ok to complain & whine to your friends for a whole day; that somehow they`ll make it better.
i learned sometimes the things you want most you just can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about school isn`t
going to be the most popular or going to parties. or drinking -- not even the hookups. it`s the friendships, which means taking chances.
i learned that sometimes the things we forgive & forget are the things we need to talk about most.
i learned that letters from friends are the most important things. & that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better.
but basically, i learned that my friends, old & new, are the most important people in the world *