Memories
SO it has been over a month since i have written in my journal, and a lot has happened since then...
i am back at school obviously, and i finally got that DA job, so i'm actually at work at the moment. For the past week or so everytime i come to work i would read my old livejournal entries.....it is amazing how much things have changed since i started this thing. There were like so many little phases in my life, and i see how much i have grown and matured.
there are a lot of things i miss....i miss lexi, max, the manchester crew....i really miss manda. going back and reading about everything made me realize how close her and i really were. i know we have both changed, and that sometimes people just grow apart, but its just hard to think that someone who i was so close with for so long isnt a part of my life at all anymore. i dont have anything against her, though i think for some reason she dislikes me...
i also remember how lonely i was, and how happy i am now. i have someone who is there for me, who loves me...two weeks from tomorrow is our 1 year anniversary. it is amazing how much time has flown. but its weird because i look back at when i was with raven and i feel so much closer to seth at this point in our relationship than i ever did with raven. seth and i are just so happy together, and its amazing how he is there for me.
i'm also really happy that he is living in the village this year. it is great how close julie and i have gotten. we just mesh so well and its great having someone that really gets me....her and ian (her boyfriend, one of seths really good friends) and me and seth are moving in together in may, in a real apartment.
it is so weird when i think about the fact that i'll be 20 soon. i know that 20 isnt old, but its just like, i wont be a teenager anymore.
i am really proud of myself. my depression has been acting up alot lately, i might need to go on a higher dose of meds...but i still am forcing myself to go to class and to do my homework and to kick ass at everything...i've been cleaning and cooking and i feel like i'm ready to move into the next stage of my life. i am ready to be on my own. i cant wait until me and seth move in together...
ahh my shift is over i have to go...
i am back at school obviously, and i finally got that DA job, so i'm actually at work at the moment. For the past week or so everytime i come to work i would read my old livejournal entries.....it is amazing how much things have changed since i started this thing. There were like so many little phases in my life, and i see how much i have grown and matured.
there are a lot of things i miss....i miss lexi, max, the manchester crew....i really miss manda. going back and reading about everything made me realize how close her and i really were. i know we have both changed, and that sometimes people just grow apart, but its just hard to think that someone who i was so close with for so long isnt a part of my life at all anymore. i dont have anything against her, though i think for some reason she dislikes me...
i also remember how lonely i was, and how happy i am now. i have someone who is there for me, who loves me...two weeks from tomorrow is our 1 year anniversary. it is amazing how much time has flown. but its weird because i look back at when i was with raven and i feel so much closer to seth at this point in our relationship than i ever did with raven. seth and i are just so happy together, and its amazing how he is there for me.
i'm also really happy that he is living in the village this year. it is great how close julie and i have gotten. we just mesh so well and its great having someone that really gets me....her and ian (her boyfriend, one of seths really good friends) and me and seth are moving in together in may, in a real apartment.
it is so weird when i think about the fact that i'll be 20 soon. i know that 20 isnt old, but its just like, i wont be a teenager anymore.
i am really proud of myself. my depression has been acting up alot lately, i might need to go on a higher dose of meds...but i still am forcing myself to go to class and to do my homework and to kick ass at everything...i've been cleaning and cooking and i feel like i'm ready to move into the next stage of my life. i am ready to be on my own. i cant wait until me and seth move in together...
ahh my shift is over i have to go...