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my life officially sucks. LOL. melodramatic much? hehehe! actually it's not that it's bad it's just not what I want. I am in that perverbal "limbo" and it's urking me to death.
I have all these new horizons and experiences in front of me and yet, the past is lingering just enough that they seem just beyond my grasp. I know that starting school was exactly what I needed, because I know I will never be happy until I have that degree in my hand. It's just the type of person I am.
I know moving in with Madeline is the best thing for a few reasons. First off, finanically I'll be saving $300-400 a month. Secondly, it will definitely bring us closer. Yes, I'm aware it'll be difference and we'll go through the common adjusting period, but I know we are semi-similar enough that I don't see the growing pains being too painful. Plus, think of all the money we'll save on car service to Bay Ridge! LOL
In addition I hope things will FINALLY work out while I help out my mom. We tend to go through periods. Hopefully my optimism isn't getting the best of me, but maybe my being there on a regular basis will kick start my mom out of her "depression." My word, not hers. I was depressed for over 2 years and I know the signs... she has them all, but no one else agrees with me, so what can you do?
4 banners I created for #2 & #3 are my favorites... bayridgenights.com
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I hate the "do as I say, not as I do." I hate hypocrites. I hate those who demand the truth from everyone but lie 85% of the time. I hate the mightier than thou act. I hate when you demand something of someone and then have the gaul to wonder why they are not thrilled all the time.
I hate limbo.
I am my own worst enemy.
I have all these new horizons and experiences in front of me and yet, the past is lingering just enough that they seem just beyond my grasp. I know that starting school was exactly what I needed, because I know I will never be happy until I have that degree in my hand. It's just the type of person I am.
I know moving in with Madeline is the best thing for a few reasons. First off, finanically I'll be saving $300-400 a month. Secondly, it will definitely bring us closer. Yes, I'm aware it'll be difference and we'll go through the common adjusting period, but I know we are semi-similar enough that I don't see the growing pains being too painful. Plus, think of all the money we'll save on car service to Bay Ridge! LOL
In addition I hope things will FINALLY work out while I help out my mom. We tend to go through periods. Hopefully my optimism isn't getting the best of me, but maybe my being there on a regular basis will kick start my mom out of her "depression." My word, not hers. I was depressed for over 2 years and I know the signs... she has them all, but no one else agrees with me, so what can you do?
4 banners I created for #2 & #3 are my favorites... bayridgenights.com
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I hate the "do as I say, not as I do." I hate hypocrites. I hate those who demand the truth from everyone but lie 85% of the time. I hate the mightier than thou act. I hate when you demand something of someone and then have the gaul to wonder why they are not thrilled all the time.
I hate limbo.
I am my own worst enemy.