Every now and then I fall apart.
SO let us go back a few days, shall we?
Thursday night was PostSecret and Kim came up. It was fantastic. I kept wondering why so many people raved about the experience in the past and I finally understand now. So that was really nice, and I got my book signed, an added bonus. Thursday night was kind of boring, but it was Thursday night, what was there to do besides bar parties? No, thanks.
The drive home Friday was rather quick and once home I quickly settled into my old routine of watching Soapnet all afternoon. I have no complaints, it was nice.
I got to visit my sister and meet William. Oh my gosh, I am in love. He was the cutest little child ever. Then my family came along and ruined it, just another perk, but I decided to move past that because stressing about things I have no control over ultimately only hurts me, yes?
Friday night I went to Starbuck's with Joe and then people came over to my house to watch A Nightmare on Elm Street. Laughable at best; I hope the remake is better.
Saturday I spent the afternoon with Bethany which was nice so we could catch up. My mother made a really good dinner and I chilled for a while at home. Then we went over to Tara's house. I forgot how much I missed being there and how much fun we all have. Just eating and laughing and being together, it was really nice. We played Pictionary until 3 AM, and by the end we were just off the wall hyper/loopy/giggly. I miss those days a lot.
In result of my post-3 arrival home, I did not wake up until 1 on Sunday. Oops. It was kind of ridiculous because I had so many things that needed to get done and just no time. It obviously all worked out, and I made it back to Rochester by 7:30. The entire time I was driving, I kept thinking how weird it was that I no longer got homesick upon arrival at school and how it just felt normal now. This was obviously a mistake because as soon as my father left, I just wanted to run out and get back in the car. I think it was really a combination of things and me letting myself think of things unpleasant, but by this morning I was fine. I guess that is a battle entirely different that I need to figure out on my own, but I just feel stuck at this point. I know/tell myself/hope I will figure it all out soon enough, but who really knows?
I spent the portion of my day not in class today in the library. I even found a means to listen to Erin's radio show, which was really cool because it got me thinking on an entirely different track. Basically, I thought it was spectacular that all of my friends and I could be doing different things in our own lives but still be able to take the time to do something essentially together. I think that is really cool, especially because as we grow older, our lives start to take their own direction which is no longer dictated by each other and the menial things like school. Someday down the road, we will be married and have careers and families and still have to find the time for each other. I just hope we all figure out that balance.
P.S., this entry is entirely with the intention to put off studying for my BCS exam on Thursday, even though I am learning new facts every day. (Today I learned about the "punch-drunk," which has always kind of baffled me.)
I could not have really asked for a better weekend home, but I still look forward to my next arrival back in the B-Lo (2 weeks!)
=)
Thursday night was PostSecret and Kim came up. It was fantastic. I kept wondering why so many people raved about the experience in the past and I finally understand now. So that was really nice, and I got my book signed, an added bonus. Thursday night was kind of boring, but it was Thursday night, what was there to do besides bar parties? No, thanks.
The drive home Friday was rather quick and once home I quickly settled into my old routine of watching Soapnet all afternoon. I have no complaints, it was nice.
I got to visit my sister and meet William. Oh my gosh, I am in love. He was the cutest little child ever. Then my family came along and ruined it, just another perk, but I decided to move past that because stressing about things I have no control over ultimately only hurts me, yes?
Friday night I went to Starbuck's with Joe and then people came over to my house to watch A Nightmare on Elm Street. Laughable at best; I hope the remake is better.
Saturday I spent the afternoon with Bethany which was nice so we could catch up. My mother made a really good dinner and I chilled for a while at home. Then we went over to Tara's house. I forgot how much I missed being there and how much fun we all have. Just eating and laughing and being together, it was really nice. We played Pictionary until 3 AM, and by the end we were just off the wall hyper/loopy/giggly. I miss those days a lot.
In result of my post-3 arrival home, I did not wake up until 1 on Sunday. Oops. It was kind of ridiculous because I had so many things that needed to get done and just no time. It obviously all worked out, and I made it back to Rochester by 7:30. The entire time I was driving, I kept thinking how weird it was that I no longer got homesick upon arrival at school and how it just felt normal now. This was obviously a mistake because as soon as my father left, I just wanted to run out and get back in the car. I think it was really a combination of things and me letting myself think of things unpleasant, but by this morning I was fine. I guess that is a battle entirely different that I need to figure out on my own, but I just feel stuck at this point. I know/tell myself/hope I will figure it all out soon enough, but who really knows?
I spent the portion of my day not in class today in the library. I even found a means to listen to Erin's radio show, which was really cool because it got me thinking on an entirely different track. Basically, I thought it was spectacular that all of my friends and I could be doing different things in our own lives but still be able to take the time to do something essentially together. I think that is really cool, especially because as we grow older, our lives start to take their own direction which is no longer dictated by each other and the menial things like school. Someday down the road, we will be married and have careers and families and still have to find the time for each other. I just hope we all figure out that balance.
P.S., this entry is entirely with the intention to put off studying for my BCS exam on Thursday, even though I am learning new facts every day. (Today I learned about the "punch-drunk," which has always kind of baffled me.)
I could not have really asked for a better weekend home, but I still look forward to my next arrival back in the B-Lo (2 weeks!)
=)