more general suckitude
I just came back from the club where I went to study, or to use the gym, whatever, just to do something productive. After studying I sat around for a bit, lumpishly, and then this waiter tried to chat me up, or at least tried to, because I was so unresponsively into myself that I was taken aback. I need to start talking to people again and hanging out and doing all the inane social-ly people stuff, so I remember how to be human again. :/ and then. and then.
well. I feel like the most physically repellent thing I can think of, and this includes platypoda, har har har. That's kind of sad really. I mean I know I can't be as grotesque as I feel, because then blah blah and blah wouldn't casually tell me I'm pretty, unless *shock* they're slimy jerks who sneakily take advantage of an ugly girl's susceptibility to flattery. but I still feel ugly ugly ugly like a pair of Ugg boots and. I just FEEL so repulsive and I want to crawl into myself. when I walk or when I talk or when I do anything at all I just want to NOT BE LOOKED AT.
the most annoying part is that I KNOW this is ridiculous and stupid, that it's. logically. not that important.
well. I feel like the most physically repellent thing I can think of, and this includes platypoda, har har har. That's kind of sad really. I mean I know I can't be as grotesque as I feel, because then blah blah and blah wouldn't casually tell me I'm pretty, unless *shock* they're slimy jerks who sneakily take advantage of an ugly girl's susceptibility to flattery. but I still feel ugly ugly ugly like a pair of Ugg boots and. I just FEEL so repulsive and I want to crawl into myself. when I walk or when I talk or when I do anything at all I just want to NOT BE LOOKED AT.
the most annoying part is that I KNOW this is ridiculous and stupid, that it's. logically. not that important.