fucking utterly miserable and no one cares
Why doesn't someone just cut my heart out? I am in so much pain and misery that I have no more will. I am so damn exhusted physically, mentally and emotionally. My hormones are hay-wire. I have contractions and don't know if I should be in the hospital or at home. I know that I need to wait a few more weeks, but I have just fucking had it. I am physically, mentally and emotionally beat the hell down. I want to have this baby in my arms already and start to feel better. I haven't slept in 3 days except an hour here and there. My body can't handle it anymore. I am trying my best for my unborn to keep strong and have the energy, but I don't know what to do. I am just so damn miserable. I never felt this shitty with Nicole. I feel like no one cares that I am miserable.
Dan just called and I cried my eyes out and all he said was that he ain't my husband and it's Josh's time to comfort me. I want Dan's comfort. He is the father, not Josh. Dan is not going underway anymore. Dan just says to call him when the baby is coming, other then that, I am Josh's respondsibility. I sometimes pray that G-d would show some mercy on me and put me into labor right now, but I know I have at least 2-6 weeks left of this.
I miss my Nicole and wish she was here to comfort me and make me laugh. She always cheers me up. I wish I could just hold her and cry and have her listen to my fears and problems like she used too. She will be home someday. I LOVE YOU NICOLEY.
Dan just called and I cried my eyes out and all he said was that he ain't my husband and it's Josh's time to comfort me. I want Dan's comfort. He is the father, not Josh. Dan is not going underway anymore. Dan just says to call him when the baby is coming, other then that, I am Josh's respondsibility. I sometimes pray that G-d would show some mercy on me and put me into labor right now, but I know I have at least 2-6 weeks left of this.
I miss my Nicole and wish she was here to comfort me and make me laugh. She always cheers me up. I wish I could just hold her and cry and have her listen to my fears and problems like she used too. She will be home someday. I LOVE YOU NICOLEY.