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Well Maryland was okay. It was so long and tiring and stuff... We did our color guard and that was cool and Melissa's mom made us a really huge/awesome lunch. I love those heart attack potatos lol I am so tired...
The whole way back I kept thinking about Brian lol It's like I couldn't get this kid off my mind. He's way out of my legaue and that makes me want him even more. He's so funny and so cute and it's like I see him every day a million times and day and I want this guy more than anything. He's so cute. Taller than I am by a few inches, built like you wouldn't belive, with these beautiful brown eyes. But it's not even that he's attractive that caught my eye because when I first noticed him I didn't even notice the attractivness. It was his laugh. His ablity to make me go from being totally serious to histrical.
It's kinda funnny.. I have always been seen as this serious non nosence type of girl. I barley went on in high school and I was hated and looked down upon by my peers. I have always taken school way to seriously people say. I never really had that high school experiance. Yeah I did the football games and the home comming dances but in between songs and touchdowns their would be a book of some nauture.. advanced chem or physics in my hand. Smart? monderate I guess you could say. I try my hardest no matter what I do. 9 times outa 10 it's not good enough for my family but at least I make an effort.
Peopl say I single myself out at MMA is that true? I try to stay involved because my fear is becomming invisible like high school. But in the route of being involved I am endangering my self and putting my self on a peddlestool above my company to be ridicualed and teased. I honestly didn't know I was doing this. I thought I was just being ivolved. Helping people. That kind of thing. But in the end it's just like high school. Everyone dislikes me and knowone really knows me. Maybe I will just become invisible. Say my peace and leave. Because obviously..it's that or leave. It's true to fact that I am always going to be the odd ball. The one who tires to much and can never succeed.
I guess sometimes we all just kind of have our place. And obviously I have step away from mine.
*~Kaitlyn~*
The whole way back I kept thinking about Brian lol It's like I couldn't get this kid off my mind. He's way out of my legaue and that makes me want him even more. He's so funny and so cute and it's like I see him every day a million times and day and I want this guy more than anything. He's so cute. Taller than I am by a few inches, built like you wouldn't belive, with these beautiful brown eyes. But it's not even that he's attractive that caught my eye because when I first noticed him I didn't even notice the attractivness. It was his laugh. His ablity to make me go from being totally serious to histrical.
It's kinda funnny.. I have always been seen as this serious non nosence type of girl. I barley went on in high school and I was hated and looked down upon by my peers. I have always taken school way to seriously people say. I never really had that high school experiance. Yeah I did the football games and the home comming dances but in between songs and touchdowns their would be a book of some nauture.. advanced chem or physics in my hand. Smart? monderate I guess you could say. I try my hardest no matter what I do. 9 times outa 10 it's not good enough for my family but at least I make an effort.
Peopl say I single myself out at MMA is that true? I try to stay involved because my fear is becomming invisible like high school. But in the route of being involved I am endangering my self and putting my self on a peddlestool above my company to be ridicualed and teased. I honestly didn't know I was doing this. I thought I was just being ivolved. Helping people. That kind of thing. But in the end it's just like high school. Everyone dislikes me and knowone really knows me. Maybe I will just become invisible. Say my peace and leave. Because obviously..it's that or leave. It's true to fact that I am always going to be the odd ball. The one who tires to much and can never succeed.
I guess sometimes we all just kind of have our place. And obviously I have step away from mine.
*~Kaitlyn~*