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I relly don't know why.. but it seems like I only write in this when I am depressed lol
I don't know why but I am like so lonely all of a sudden. I miss my family even though they r annoying as hell lol I miss my friends back home and suddenly I realize what I have been missing realtionship wise. I guess I havn't been really paying attention. I guess everyone is in one of those can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars over the fence past no return type of love and for me it just hasn't struck a home run yet.
Everyday, it seems like I watch the world pass me by. I trick and fool myself by surrounding myself with work and stress. I love working and I love to help people but at the same time I kinda miss knowing what it felt like to be held, kissed and talked to in that intimate way that girls and guys do.
The guy I like.. I at least knows that I exist but I can never really tell. I am proberly blowing all the conversations in my head out of proportion like I always do when I like a guy but I just can't help it. He's cute and funny and when he looks into my eyes the whole world floats away. I am really not suppose to be even thinking of like a sophmore but I do. Freshman can only date freshman... yada yada yada I get it... it just sucks... :(
I don't know why but I am like so lonely all of a sudden. I miss my family even though they r annoying as hell lol I miss my friends back home and suddenly I realize what I have been missing realtionship wise. I guess I havn't been really paying attention. I guess everyone is in one of those can't eat, can't sleep, reach for the stars over the fence past no return type of love and for me it just hasn't struck a home run yet.
Everyday, it seems like I watch the world pass me by. I trick and fool myself by surrounding myself with work and stress. I love working and I love to help people but at the same time I kinda miss knowing what it felt like to be held, kissed and talked to in that intimate way that girls and guys do.
The guy I like.. I at least knows that I exist but I can never really tell. I am proberly blowing all the conversations in my head out of proportion like I always do when I like a guy but I just can't help it. He's cute and funny and when he looks into my eyes the whole world floats away. I am really not suppose to be even thinking of like a sophmore but I do. Freshman can only date freshman... yada yada yada I get it... it just sucks... :(