Uncertain days are ahead...
I'm recently thinking of updating on my resume. I have not started on updating it yet... just thinking of updating it... so this is how divorcing my job commences.
Three long years that could be seen as a start-middle-end kind of plot structure. I was happy at the beginning. I enjoyed the challenges, the confusion, and the learning. I thought things will iron out as weeks passed by. That inconsistencies will decrease and I'll get an overview understanding of how the products' policies work.
But I was wrong. I was very wrong.
The more concerns I raise, the more my managers say it's just how it is. Dead end after dead end after dead end. Inconsistencies just keep getting worse. How can I help the customers if the policies aren't even fixed. It does not make sense. I took upon myself to have a moral obligation to do things ethically. But how can I consider office practices ethical if they lead to dead ends with no resolve. A hopeless chase, a huge waste of time, an emotional burden.
So around the mid-second year I thought I'll leave the company, but my manager urged me to stay. She was kind and convincing, not to mention helpful at that point in time. But a few weeks ago the tables have turned, that same person is telling me to rethink my career, a nudge to resign.
I asked if there's a way to stay in the company but be in a different line of work. I was given a resounding no due to one grade factor I'm failing. Even though as a whole my score was above average I cannot be reassigned to a work that I might be more suited in because of this one category. So I'm trapped in a job that starts to eat me away.
When I took the job, all I thought is that working hard will lead me to succeed. I was never talented in anything. Sadly, I have to work hard to achieve anything. I was never one of those people who got good grades with just taking mental notes. I have to take notes, read, re-read, memorize.
So realizing that hard work does not equate to success was kind of hard on me.
I never imagined that all my O.T.T.Y. (overtime-thank you, meaning unpaid overtime) bears no meaning, the commendation I get bears no positive numerical effect on my score. The things I do to be honest to the customers means nothing, a big nothing.
Since my managers cannot appreciate my dedication, and even told me that I might get terminated because of this one failing category, then it's goodbye. We did have fun but it's now become a heartache.
So here we are... marching towards that day wherein I'll hand my divorce papers.
It's hard but it must be done or I might go crazy.
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I won't be working yet after my rendering days are over. I'll set up time to do what I want, maybe two to three months. So far I have my sights set on learning how to sew. What I'm really worried about is getting another job. Recession is not over.
P.S. If anybody knows where I can get affordable sewing classes in Quezon City or Manila then please comment below.
Three long years that could be seen as a start-middle-end kind of plot structure. I was happy at the beginning. I enjoyed the challenges, the confusion, and the learning. I thought things will iron out as weeks passed by. That inconsistencies will decrease and I'll get an overview understanding of how the products' policies work.
But I was wrong. I was very wrong.
The more concerns I raise, the more my managers say it's just how it is. Dead end after dead end after dead end. Inconsistencies just keep getting worse. How can I help the customers if the policies aren't even fixed. It does not make sense. I took upon myself to have a moral obligation to do things ethically. But how can I consider office practices ethical if they lead to dead ends with no resolve. A hopeless chase, a huge waste of time, an emotional burden.
So around the mid-second year I thought I'll leave the company, but my manager urged me to stay. She was kind and convincing, not to mention helpful at that point in time. But a few weeks ago the tables have turned, that same person is telling me to rethink my career, a nudge to resign.
I asked if there's a way to stay in the company but be in a different line of work. I was given a resounding no due to one grade factor I'm failing. Even though as a whole my score was above average I cannot be reassigned to a work that I might be more suited in because of this one category. So I'm trapped in a job that starts to eat me away.
When I took the job, all I thought is that working hard will lead me to succeed. I was never talented in anything. Sadly, I have to work hard to achieve anything. I was never one of those people who got good grades with just taking mental notes. I have to take notes, read, re-read, memorize.
So realizing that hard work does not equate to success was kind of hard on me.
I never imagined that all my O.T.T.Y. (overtime-thank you, meaning unpaid overtime) bears no meaning, the commendation I get bears no positive numerical effect on my score. The things I do to be honest to the customers means nothing, a big nothing.
Since my managers cannot appreciate my dedication, and even told me that I might get terminated because of this one failing category, then it's goodbye. We did have fun but it's now become a heartache.
So here we are... marching towards that day wherein I'll hand my divorce papers.
It's hard but it must be done or I might go crazy.
----------
I won't be working yet after my rendering days are over. I'll set up time to do what I want, maybe two to three months. So far I have my sights set on learning how to sew. What I'm really worried about is getting another job. Recession is not over.
P.S. If anybody knows where I can get affordable sewing classes in Quezon City or Manila then please comment below.