[pornmas] day 3.
Summary: She trusts him too, even if she doesn't know how to say it.
Fandom/Pairings: Degrassi; Jake Martin/Katie Matlin
Rating: R
Pre-Notes: I think . . . oh good grief, this has literally been sitting 99.99% finished in my fic folder since last pornmas. It was day 9. Now it's day 3 AND I'M POSTING IT LATE even though it's been finished for hours. Good grief, I'm a disaster.
Disclaimer: hahahahahaha hell no.
all the ways you make my stomach turn
The first time they have sex, Katie's scared but pretending not to be. Her skin has turned to porcelain, to ivory, to steel, and she's forgotten how to be with something without barriers. Jake tells her that they don't have to-they really don't and he's not gonna make her do anything she doesn't want to-but Katie breathes and tries to kill the butterflies in her chest.
"It's fine," she says. She kisses Jake and holds him close. "I love you."
Jake believes her. He trusts her, more than anyone else trusts her, and it's the best Katie's felt in a long time. She trusts him too, even if she doesn't know how to say it. Breathing out, Katie steadies herself and lets Jake undress her. She can feel her walls crumbling away, and it terrifies her but that's okay. That's fine, because Jake is the one person who Katie feels won't destroy her if she lets her walls down. They go slowly, one thing at a time, and it seems to take longer than forever before they're both naked and staring at each other.
Katie kisses Jake for all she's worth, twisting them until she's above him and looking down. Jake grins up at her, smile so full of love that Katie doesn't know what to do with it. His hands are cold against her skin as they trail up her body until he's cupping her breasts and Katie's breathing hitches. Her arms almost give out, but no. No, she's stronger than that. Still, Katie wraps herself in the surety that Jake would catch her-and it is not armor, but silk. She kisses him again and again and again, trying to tell him that she wants this more than anything. I want you and no one else, Katie tries to tell him. She shakes not because it's cold, but because she's overwhelmed. Jake asks if she's okay, if she wants to stop, and Katie doesn't let herself cry.
"I'm fine," Katie says. She means it, even if Jake doesn't understand. "Just fine."
Fumbling slightly, Katie wraps her fingers around him and guides him into her. She goes slowly, wincing at the way he stretches her past what she's used to. It's awkward for a moment, but Katie's breathes through it. It doesn't hurt as badly as any of the injuries she's gotten in soccer, and once she's gotten used to it, everything's okay. She's okay. Really.
Before she can move, though, Jake shifts them into a position where there's not as much stress on her knees. He kisses her, slowly rocking forward and oh. Katie whimpers, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes. Worried, Jake stops and Katie frantically shakes her head. She can't manage the words she wants to say, but she knows one thing: she never ever wants him to stop.
"Please," Katie gasps. Her fingers dig into his skin as she holds him tighter. "Please."
He moves, and Katie nearly chokes on her relief. She's not afraid anymore.
(ps: if you're late to the party/just want more porn, go check out the pornmas advent calendar/masterlist.)
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Fandom/Pairings: Degrassi; Jake Martin/Katie Matlin
Rating: R
Pre-Notes: I think . . . oh good grief, this has literally been sitting 99.99% finished in my fic folder since last pornmas. It was day 9. Now it's day 3 AND I'M POSTING IT LATE even though it's been finished for hours. Good grief, I'm a disaster.
Disclaimer: hahahahahaha hell no.
all the ways you make my stomach turn
The first time they have sex, Katie's scared but pretending not to be. Her skin has turned to porcelain, to ivory, to steel, and she's forgotten how to be with something without barriers. Jake tells her that they don't have to-they really don't and he's not gonna make her do anything she doesn't want to-but Katie breathes and tries to kill the butterflies in her chest.
"It's fine," she says. She kisses Jake and holds him close. "I love you."
Jake believes her. He trusts her, more than anyone else trusts her, and it's the best Katie's felt in a long time. She trusts him too, even if she doesn't know how to say it. Breathing out, Katie steadies herself and lets Jake undress her. She can feel her walls crumbling away, and it terrifies her but that's okay. That's fine, because Jake is the one person who Katie feels won't destroy her if she lets her walls down. They go slowly, one thing at a time, and it seems to take longer than forever before they're both naked and staring at each other.
Katie kisses Jake for all she's worth, twisting them until she's above him and looking down. Jake grins up at her, smile so full of love that Katie doesn't know what to do with it. His hands are cold against her skin as they trail up her body until he's cupping her breasts and Katie's breathing hitches. Her arms almost give out, but no. No, she's stronger than that. Still, Katie wraps herself in the surety that Jake would catch her-and it is not armor, but silk. She kisses him again and again and again, trying to tell him that she wants this more than anything. I want you and no one else, Katie tries to tell him. She shakes not because it's cold, but because she's overwhelmed. Jake asks if she's okay, if she wants to stop, and Katie doesn't let herself cry.
"I'm fine," Katie says. She means it, even if Jake doesn't understand. "Just fine."
Fumbling slightly, Katie wraps her fingers around him and guides him into her. She goes slowly, wincing at the way he stretches her past what she's used to. It's awkward for a moment, but Katie's breathes through it. It doesn't hurt as badly as any of the injuries she's gotten in soccer, and once she's gotten used to it, everything's okay. She's okay. Really.
Before she can move, though, Jake shifts them into a position where there's not as much stress on her knees. He kisses her, slowly rocking forward and oh. Katie whimpers, tears welling up in the corners of her eyes. Worried, Jake stops and Katie frantically shakes her head. She can't manage the words she wants to say, but she knows one thing: she never ever wants him to stop.
"Please," Katie gasps. Her fingers dig into his skin as she holds him tighter. "Please."
He moves, and Katie nearly chokes on her relief. She's not afraid anymore.
(ps: if you're late to the party/just want more porn, go check out the pornmas advent calendar/masterlist.)
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