Musings V

[kirzen]

There's one big advantage of having long bus trips to go through every day, when I'm not busy beating the tar out of the terrible AI on the poker game on my cellphone I get a chance to stare out the window and think about various things

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(looks contrite)

[anonymous]

actually, for the first time I am sorry of my last words to you. I wanted to hurt you and to the extent I may have succeeded I am deeply regretful.

(pauses to make it clear she didn't casually toss that off, yet isn't trying to get close to you again either.)

btw, I haven't used Judaism as spackle, or a way of going "everything is great, entrails and torture, abuse of power, abuse of children, it's all part of the divine plan" like many people.

In fact, I gave one congregant the willies when I contended against her opinion that there are no evil humans, undeserving of redemption. Though I wish I had thought harder and restrained my vehemence. Her opinon was one of the lynchpins of her stability and I didn't realize this till after I'd hacked at it a couple of times (sighs softly).

Everything I thought I knew about Judaism before was at best out of context or partially correct, but missing a key bit. I have been blessed with the best teachers in RL.

Oh, and Rob was wrong. The only sacrifice that's to be reinstated with the Messianic Age is the Peace Offering which is a holy barbecue with a single serving of meat burned to ash.

Remember, His wife did stab him (which led to their divorce), which I feel casts a major pall on her authority as a good teacher.

These are the best days of my life. I'm alone, but content. I have a couple RL friends, teachers I respect and love the company of. A job coach who's competent and ready to go all out to help me find a job when we get to that part of the plan. Every week I see signs of progress towards my goals.

I share that to try and make what I say perhaps a shade more credible. And to show that given how much joy I have, wanting to share some of it can plausibly be just for its own sake.

Re: (looks contrite)

[kirzen]

Honestly I'm happy to hear that you're doing well and that things are headed for greener pastures. I'm not sure where I am myself, or where I'm headed, but seeing the sun shining through the leaves above me is enough for now to tell me that a path must exist.

The forest has become pleasant to walk in, and if I wander enough, I now feel I truly will stumble across a path to my destination, the wait, is more comfortable.

(nods softly)

[tahkhleet]

Glad to hear it. You didn't seem too happy from your last many posts so it's good that progress has happened.

I do firmly believe the most profound lessons often require the most pain, alas. May the worst be past for you as well.