I dug my grave with my own hands...

[kirstyn2e]

Lets see Im 21 on Saturday. Normally people will be spending it with there friends out drunk and having a blast not me though. Nope because my best friend is in California and everyone else sucks. I have to admit I am pretty upset. I understand it was a free trip for him and his sig other goes away every August... But my birthday? Are you serous? I am allowed to be a brat sometimes. Its just not fair. He knew how much this meant to me. Its so retarted he keeps saying he will make it up when he gets home but idk. I am just really really bummed. Part of it is my fault. I secluded myself in a bubble where it was just him and me. He is moving on and I am stuck in the past i guess. It just makes me feel like crap... I guess I am just a friendless POS. It just sucks because I had so many friends in college then i move home get a realy job and life blows. Grrr FML!

When am I going to get cut a break for once in my life?

This whole lj is so stupid... Glad to see i resorted to being 12 again!

If you are reading this stay in college because the real world sucks more the miss costello did with mr t