Empty Space
I start at Fat Cats tomorrow. I am soo terribly nervous.
It isn't even funny.
I am so scared that I am going to go in there and suck sooooo bad.
I wish I started Friday night with Kandis and not tomorrow ALONE.
oh boy oh boy oh boy.
&& to put the icing on the cake.. I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO COME VISIT ME TOMORROW!
So it's my first night and I get to see NOBODY that I know.
What if I go and like spill all the shots or come out with like $20 or something.
Oh well I will get over it once I start tomorrow. BUT right now I'm SCURRRRED.
Sanjaya got kicked off tonight. Everyone at Nicks was SO excited! lol
I think kicked off next should be... Lakisha.
Then Blake.
THEN Phil.
Jordan should be next.
THEN the really hot guy with the short hair.
& MELINDA SHOULD WIN!
Oh my oh my I hope it happens like that.
If Melinda doesn't win. UH.
I think Jordan might win though & I don't really like her at all.
I saw her do the Gwen Stefani song that night and I wanted to die.
SHE SUCKEDDD.
Melinda is ALWAYS good though. She had 1 off night thats it.
I have been having really bad dreams lately.
NOT like nightmares of monsters or anything lol
Like... of people dying. Its always the same 2 people though.
I'm not going to talk about that much because I don't want to
"speak it into existance" as my mommy says.
&& last night I had a horrible dream that me & Kandis weren't friends because of something dumb
like really dumb. I think it was over like $20 or something.
AND just dreams about bad things happening in my life.
I hope it's not trying to warn me that something bad is going to happen or anything.
ALRIGHT. So there has been so many murders lately.
In Mandeville that poor Mother & Son were shot by the husband.
&& last night it said something about some teenagers killed.
and today on Jefferson HWY.... someone in a car ran into someone on a streetbike
or motorcycle or something and I heard it was bad.
I hope they are alright.
& poor virginia tech. That guy was a nutcase I dont know how he got out the psycho ward.
The really hot guy on American Idol was from there & he cried on the show tonight =/
POOR GUY!
My daddy is moving real soon. I am going to be so sad.
I am going to miss him SO much.
I love my family & now I will NEVER get to see them.
I hope me & castro get a double though. B/CUS
I need a place to live!!
& even though I RARELY get online now.
I will neverrrrr be online once I move.
like never.
I won't mind that much though I don't think.
It isn't even funny.
I am so scared that I am going to go in there and suck sooooo bad.
I wish I started Friday night with Kandis and not tomorrow ALONE.
oh boy oh boy oh boy.
&& to put the icing on the cake.. I DON'T HAVE ANYONE TO COME VISIT ME TOMORROW!
So it's my first night and I get to see NOBODY that I know.
What if I go and like spill all the shots or come out with like $20 or something.
Oh well I will get over it once I start tomorrow. BUT right now I'm SCURRRRED.
Sanjaya got kicked off tonight. Everyone at Nicks was SO excited! lol
I think kicked off next should be... Lakisha.
Then Blake.
THEN Phil.
Jordan should be next.
THEN the really hot guy with the short hair.
& MELINDA SHOULD WIN!
Oh my oh my I hope it happens like that.
If Melinda doesn't win. UH.
I think Jordan might win though & I don't really like her at all.
I saw her do the Gwen Stefani song that night and I wanted to die.
SHE SUCKEDDD.
Melinda is ALWAYS good though. She had 1 off night thats it.
I have been having really bad dreams lately.
NOT like nightmares of monsters or anything lol
Like... of people dying. Its always the same 2 people though.
I'm not going to talk about that much because I don't want to
"speak it into existance" as my mommy says.
&& last night I had a horrible dream that me & Kandis weren't friends because of something dumb
like really dumb. I think it was over like $20 or something.
AND just dreams about bad things happening in my life.
I hope it's not trying to warn me that something bad is going to happen or anything.
ALRIGHT. So there has been so many murders lately.
In Mandeville that poor Mother & Son were shot by the husband.
&& last night it said something about some teenagers killed.
and today on Jefferson HWY.... someone in a car ran into someone on a streetbike
or motorcycle or something and I heard it was bad.
I hope they are alright.
& poor virginia tech. That guy was a nutcase I dont know how he got out the psycho ward.
The really hot guy on American Idol was from there & he cried on the show tonight =/
POOR GUY!
My daddy is moving real soon. I am going to be so sad.
I am going to miss him SO much.
I love my family & now I will NEVER get to see them.
I hope me & castro get a double though. B/CUS
I need a place to live!!
& even though I RARELY get online now.
I will neverrrrr be online once I move.
like never.
I won't mind that much though I don't think.