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[kirsten]

my parents separated when my brother and i were kids. there were reasons of course. there are always reasons when people split up. i don't remember them fighting that much. i think that was why it was so hard for christian and me to comprehend the separation. if they weren't mad at each other then why weren't they together? even when we moved three

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[levine]

From the get go you changed my life for the better. At first I was sure I just gained a friend, but little did I know I was totally off. We said the same thing, right? But it's pretty wrong. You fulfilled so much for me and then some. I've never loved someone so completely and fully. Love. I still love you very, very much. I still smile when I think of the mornings you'd turn your head on your pillow to look at me, the way you'd tie your shoes or just the way you'd laugh and snort. I'm not going to remember the rough times, the end I saw, the hints of disenchantment. I had a lot of good times, I fell in love with you, probably several times. No one got me like you did. You do. I'm not using past tense, that's stupid. You're. well, you're mine.

[haha SOB I am having a hard time letting go, we both knew I would. I fell in love with your kiki just like I never meant to fall in love with your marla. God, and of course your girls ruin my boys, because yours has personality, charm, and goes over and beyond anything we could have expected from them. They were so alike and I know you're like me who believes they'll find their way again. ugh. THIS IS SO SAD. you are so much more than I can ask for in a writing partner and friend for life because this isn't the end. SIGH. I love you so much ic and ooc and I just read this and it felt appropriate to put in here "A lot of my emotional issues come from dealing with the opposite sex. I've come to terms with the fact that I'll be retired before I can finally enter into a healthy relationship. It's not all negative--I've had wonderful, fulfilling relationships. It's kind of the equilibrium--the yin-yang, if you will, of relationships--that I write about. That's what keeps me going." -- Adam Levine on how much women inspire his music.

:( it's not going to be quite the same, but you'll always be my Marla Franco/Kiki Dunst]

[kirsten]

i didn't get why my parents didn't divorce until there was you. i know that sounds weird, but i think they knew that when it's the big one, the one that tilts your world on it's axis, closure isn't going to happen. they can turn into something else for you, but they will be there in some form. you are it for me, and i am at peace with that. i know we're being something to each other no matter what because we're connected. i love you, and you're mine too.

[I know, babe. I really do. Our lines were not meant to happen, and ahahaha it is what it is. They were very different, but both are so special to me. You've made me a better writer, and you're such an awesome friend. The fact that I get to keep you even after I leave here makes all of the other stuff worth it. You are the ying to my yang. ghfdkjhsjhkj I will have to finish this later because I'm all hjfkdhas.j you know? Of course you do.]