alright, so i'm sick of change and being told ive changed, so i'ma post this and see what changes.
my name is Kirsty but most of my friends just call me Kitsy.I am going to live in California when I am older. I'm very opinionated and I like to say what I think almost all the time. I don't believe in myself, and I lack in self confidence. I’m very very impatient; its unbelievable. I also get really pissed off when people make assumptions about me which they know aren't true. I know my life's not that bad and if you really knew me, I think you'd know how grateful I am for everything, i would call myself a complicated person, but I'm sure we're all pretty complicated. and why would i call myself complicated? well that's a good question.I don't really get along with many people,i find it very hard to trust people .i never make the right decisions.
I seem to contradict myself , i feel uncomfortable in big crowds.I also get ignored all the time, i'm used to that now.i like to spend time alone. It helps me to clear my mind. I'm quite independent. Ambitious? YES but you have to be in this game to win it.I'm gonna try my best and get the best i can out of life, i love the people in it and what they do for me. well because i never make the right decisions, i seem to hate what happens in my life, doesn't mean i hate what or who is in my life. I like to take life how it comes, even though I don't like how it turns out sometimes I try to keep my head up high and stay positive. I think that everything happens for a reason, and that it is very easy to lead astray from the right path.If i feel everything goes wrong just over a small reason, i may make a big thing out of it, because its all those little problems and small misunderstandings that build up. I do go on about small things a bit to much, but i love my friends for trying to help me get though those moments. Okay so i know everyone has trust issues right? well i've lost quite a few friends because of trust. They may not know it, but inside i still dislike them, i just try not to show it. There are only four people i can trust with anything and those people i would give up anything for; Paige, Hannah, Paige + Emily.
I remember when Aaron told me to just give things a chance for once, and as Aaron being one of my closet friends, i listened to him and actually tried. I'm not saying i regret giving that thing a chance, it's just i didn't like how it turned out afterwards. When i have to make a choice , or choose the right things to do in life, i always think back to what he said, and even though it might not always turn out the way i want it to, at least i tried and got the experience out of it.
Well I'd love to be a lot thinner, and a great deal taller, but thats something i have to work at, and i dont care what other peoples opinions are on that choice i just made. I hate it when i'm out with someone and i compare myself to other people around me. But that's one thing that annoys me about myself. I always try not to, but then that's just judging yourself.I've learnt over the last year to get over things quickly cause there is no point letting them hold you back. I hate when people pretend to know me , i don't even know myself properly yet.I don't like to judge people by their looks, but I often do it, it is in human nature.
I also think Demi Lovato is god.I couldn't live without music it means a lot. I don't just judge music by how it sounds, i listen to the lyrics, because every song has a meaning, and can sometimes relate to how we feel. Demi Lovato's lyrics mean something to me. Some people judge others by the music they listen to, it doesnt always work like that. If you didn't actually know Miley Cyrus or Taylor Swift, you wouldn't really think they were the type to listen to country music when they were younger? keeping in mind, they are just around the same age as most of us.Also, if you haven't read Miley Cyrus' book 'Miles To Go' i suggest you go out and buy it, because Miley proves that her life isnt what it seem's and this book inspired me to follow my dreams. This is me + Believe in me by Demi Lovato are actually my favourite songs, and have been since her album was released a while ago. I'm losing myself,trying to compete with everyone else instead of just being me.Don't know where to turn I've been stuck in this routine I need to change my ways instead of always being weak( 8 ) a few other artists that i actually just love to lsten to are; Miley Cyrus, Jonas Brothers, Metro Station, Millionaires ,Romance on a rocketship, Never shout never,Taylor Swift ,Aly + Aj, Hurry! lets go, Nickasaur, RelientK, Forever The Sickest Kids, Tommy Reilly,Can You Keep A Secret, Dave Days, Jimmy James, Paramore, Scotty Vanity and Teen Hearts.