Mixed feelings
I really don't know how to explain what I'm feeling today...It's something new and absolutely strange. I mean a feel that supposed to attend me since I've woken up.
Now her I'm just trying to describe what It is...
First of all, I am not obsessed with my future trip anymore and I don't even want it to be happened...Then, I'm so tired from my casual lifestyle, so this unusual weekend has changed my mind about what I'd like most of all. Well, now it's some things which I still want from me past and the new one is to spend at least a week, though, a month is much better, out of the town, without all this civilization's stuff! No computers, Internet, mobile phones and problems you have to worry about. No rules, no strings, but only total freedom of thoughts and actions! That's what I want... And finally, I've never been so upset about turning back home. It was ridiculous. It can't be real to feel like that but it was. It's already happened and I, so, I'm confused now.
What does it mean, actually? WHat if all my plans are just a fake?..
Now her I'm just trying to describe what It is...
First of all, I am not obsessed with my future trip anymore and I don't even want it to be happened...Then, I'm so tired from my casual lifestyle, so this unusual weekend has changed my mind about what I'd like most of all. Well, now it's some things which I still want from me past and the new one is to spend at least a week, though, a month is much better, out of the town, without all this civilization's stuff! No computers, Internet, mobile phones and problems you have to worry about. No rules, no strings, but only total freedom of thoughts and actions! That's what I want... And finally, I've never been so upset about turning back home. It was ridiculous. It can't be real to feel like that but it was. It's already happened and I, so, I'm confused now.
What does it mean, actually? WHat if all my plans are just a fake?..