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im not even sure i feel like posting. but i should get a few things off my chest.
firstly im actualy real fucking depressed (if you havent noticed) and im not really in the mood to do anything. maybe its loosing that 200 bucks, maybe its that i havent had a real relationship for......well a long fucking time, maybe its cause my life consists of sitting in this god dam fucking room all day talking to people who in real life i have almost nothing to do with. i mean shit, this is fucking retarded.
secondly i HATE studying. it is by far the worst thing ive ever had to do. if i cant pick something up the first time i read it im probably not gonna get it anyway so whats the point?
thirdly im utterly confused. i feel for so many people and i sometimes wonder if anyone feels anything back. it kills me to see other people sad and not be able to help them. right now i just wanna crawl under a rock or into the bottom of a bottle.
this is probably the only post in this journal thats not edited to keep my real feelings hidden and it will probably be the last.
firstly im actualy real fucking depressed (if you havent noticed) and im not really in the mood to do anything. maybe its loosing that 200 bucks, maybe its that i havent had a real relationship for......well a long fucking time, maybe its cause my life consists of sitting in this god dam fucking room all day talking to people who in real life i have almost nothing to do with. i mean shit, this is fucking retarded.
secondly i HATE studying. it is by far the worst thing ive ever had to do. if i cant pick something up the first time i read it im probably not gonna get it anyway so whats the point?
thirdly im utterly confused. i feel for so many people and i sometimes wonder if anyone feels anything back. it kills me to see other people sad and not be able to help them. right now i just wanna crawl under a rock or into the bottom of a bottle.
this is probably the only post in this journal thats not edited to keep my real feelings hidden and it will probably be the last.