using icon not for expression srs

[kirikaito]

•  I've been. bored out of my brains. Been playing Golden Sun Dark Dawn till it's getting tiring. Grind, grind, grind. Then 'ooooh dijinn!' or 'oooh boss!' or...yeah. I'm just playing because of the novelty of the old GBA games, but seriously getting tired by the long-windedness. (Even the FAQ isn't complete fml) it's getting tempting to just ugh, give up on games. why is that tempting I don't even know -
• I love how stupidly long I took to colour the panel used for the icon here. Seriously pretty is pretty but overkill um. But it looks good.
• I think I'm just going to die thinking of what to do daily until I have a confirmed job, and how to fill up my portfolio with pretty works. I don't even know how anymore. I'm also dying inside waiting for that email - expecting rejection after my fail style of answering during interview, meep - since my friend's got it already. why why why.
• Loneliness at home. It's just awfully quiet. I'm just wondering how I'm staying sane with little contact until my parents come home in the evening. And the hours just roll away...
• I sort of regret not signing up for prom. I mean, look at the gazillion prom photos everyone is posting! Everyone looks so pretty...sigh. Fail dream is fail. I used to love dresses when I was in kindergarden. Hated it till...now. The simple wish of wanting to be beautiful. The simple, long forgotten...
• brb boring my wits out again. Need to think what else I can actually put in portfolio without looking like some crazy fanartist/noob/retard. Originality, quality, etc... This is when my wish to live like a hermit really comes in. Baaaa. I do not deal well. Christmas? Don't go there yet, I don't know...