39 chapters is all I could stand, it was way too bad!
After I dropped it, I continued reading another novel I had on stand by (new post for that one later) which was also told in first person pov, just to realize that first person wasn't my problem with Desharow Merman at all.
My problem was that it was way too repetitive, from words and phrases to full scenes! everything was repeated over and over again and the plot became slow and didn't move anywhere. After reading many pages you where still stuck in the same scene/situation! it was exasperating!
Also, the main character was very VERY dumb, to a ridiculous point. His brain was stuck in "oh, you savage beast!" and "this is embarrassing", his favorite phrases, repeated countless times. I'll just give you an example of how dumb he was:
[hmmm, spoiler? but nothing relevant *shrugs*]So, Agares (the merman) is jealous of Desharow's colleague. There's nothing going on with the colleague (even worse, that guy tricked him into a trap and tried to r4pe him 2 times already) so Agares angrily asks Desharow if he loved that nasty guy... to which Desharow starts a "curious" monologue inside his head: "oh, well, I'm not a homo so I don't know how it feels to love another man so, how could I answer that? I better stay silent"........ BOY!!! it's quite simple!!!!!!! you like him or not? you don't!!!! just answer, damnit!!! he had an angry and jealous "beast" (his words) in front of him and just decided to let him become even more angry for nothing! AND THEN when things go worse and Agares is about to kill the nasty guy, Desharow is like "no, no, stop! don't kill him! I belong to you!!!" and that's portrayed as smart... NO, you just hanged yourself, telling a lie instead of simply answering the question Agares asked you before.
There are more examples of other ridiculous scenes/thoughts of Desharow but writing more about this novel is a waste of time. If you don't want to lose neurons, don't read it, it feels very amateur, with a writer that used excuses that lead to the scenes she wanted to write instead of everything flowing in a logical way.
I'll miss the merman, I wanted to see his evolution... but I can't keep reading this (and given how poorly written it is, maybe he didn't even get any character grow so I 'd rather stop now)