Oh god...
You have no idea, how I feel. I want to slice my fucking arms apart. I do feel like A whore. Well not a whore. But I feel really bad about something. Lately, Scott has been sleeping all day. So when I get home, he's too tired to do anything. So today i'm like. Well since you're up. I'm busy! I hung out with Hunter. My ex. Who aparently still loves me. We hung out. I kicked his ass in Battlefront 2. I started feeling really horrible. Mainly about Scott. I was giving him such a hard time. Now, I feel so bad about it. Hanging out with Hunter really told me where my true loyalties lie. I love Scott. I won't go out with you again Hunter. I cannot avoid the fact you made me feel so bad I really wanted to die. If I lose Scott, I would feel the same way. Again. I can't risk that. Hunter, I will still be here for you. I will be a very close friend of yours. But I can't love you. I have someone that already means the world to me. Nothing can change that.
I just really HATE the fact that my boyfriend doesn't agree with me on anything. Music wise. Clothing wise. And a lot more of our own personal beliefs. It's getting really hard to love him. Gotta pull through this. There is only him.
I just really HATE the fact that my boyfriend doesn't agree with me on anything. Music wise. Clothing wise. And a lot more of our own personal beliefs. It's getting really hard to love him. Gotta pull through this. There is only him.