Lapse
Christ. Look at how time flies.
I was sitting here playing LotGD and all I could think about really was how I'd rather be role-playing. The only problem is, I don't want to sign on because I don't want to be harassed by people. And after letting certain individuals know who I am on one of my newest screen names, the constant pointless discussions have continued. There was a time where, before I let people know it was me, I was at peace. It was nice to simply sit and not have to put up with the OOC redundancy of conversations that go nowhere for a while, but my popularity only returned in full force.
People? I lurk on that name for a reason. There is a reason my profile says what it says over there too. I created the SN for the sole purpose of avoiding ridiculously pointless conversations that do nothing more than bore me to tears in the end. Bad enough that I picked up the attention of a player I only recently started interacting with. So now, every time I'm on that name and she sees me online, I'm plagued with more pointless conversation about how pathetic her life is and how depressed it makes me just to listen to her.
It was that thought that made me realize I don't really want to be sitting here role-playing. I'd much rather be writing. And that lead me to the realization that I haven't written a damn thing in a good long while. I remember I wanted to go somewhere with my Creation Draemrah story. I had an idea. However, I have no inspiration to work on that story whatsoever. Then I thought... Hey. What about the Gradia story you've been working on as well? I realized that I have no inspiration to work on that one either.
Basically, I've stumbled upon a severe case of writer's block. I don't know what I want to write, but I have an overwhelming urge to write something. Maybe I should work on that short story I was working on, based off of a dream I had. Though I'm not sure if I have the mindset to work on that either. I don't know. I'm a little lost.
I'm absolutely loving the amount of interraction that is going on over on the Mutual Endeavors Message Board. There's some really fabulous storytelling going on over there, and not just from myself. The effort that the other members are putting into what they're writing pleases me. I almost feel we could take all of what has been written there and turn it into a book. Though I'm sure we'd have to get permission from White Wolf, and the collaborative author listing would be insane. Alas.
Well ... I think I got most of this out of my system. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet today. It's Jamie's day off and I really don't feel like sitting in the living room with him. Thankfully, he has the PS2 and Xenosaga II to keep him preoccupied. I just wish I felt like sitting in the living room with him, to spend some time with him, but I'm rather blah today. No.
No motivation at all.
I was sitting here playing LotGD and all I could think about really was how I'd rather be role-playing. The only problem is, I don't want to sign on because I don't want to be harassed by people. And after letting certain individuals know who I am on one of my newest screen names, the constant pointless discussions have continued. There was a time where, before I let people know it was me, I was at peace. It was nice to simply sit and not have to put up with the OOC redundancy of conversations that go nowhere for a while, but my popularity only returned in full force.
People? I lurk on that name for a reason. There is a reason my profile says what it says over there too. I created the SN for the sole purpose of avoiding ridiculously pointless conversations that do nothing more than bore me to tears in the end. Bad enough that I picked up the attention of a player I only recently started interacting with. So now, every time I'm on that name and she sees me online, I'm plagued with more pointless conversation about how pathetic her life is and how depressed it makes me just to listen to her.
It was that thought that made me realize I don't really want to be sitting here role-playing. I'd much rather be writing. And that lead me to the realization that I haven't written a damn thing in a good long while. I remember I wanted to go somewhere with my Creation Draemrah story. I had an idea. However, I have no inspiration to work on that story whatsoever. Then I thought... Hey. What about the Gradia story you've been working on as well? I realized that I have no inspiration to work on that one either.
Basically, I've stumbled upon a severe case of writer's block. I don't know what I want to write, but I have an overwhelming urge to write something. Maybe I should work on that short story I was working on, based off of a dream I had. Though I'm not sure if I have the mindset to work on that either. I don't know. I'm a little lost.
I'm absolutely loving the amount of interraction that is going on over on the Mutual Endeavors Message Board. There's some really fabulous storytelling going on over there, and not just from myself. The effort that the other members are putting into what they're writing pleases me. I almost feel we could take all of what has been written there and turn it into a book. Though I'm sure we'd have to get permission from White Wolf, and the collaborative author listing would be insane. Alas.
Well ... I think I got most of this out of my system. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet today. It's Jamie's day off and I really don't feel like sitting in the living room with him. Thankfully, he has the PS2 and Xenosaga II to keep him preoccupied. I just wish I felt like sitting in the living room with him, to spend some time with him, but I'm rather blah today. No.
No motivation at all.