This friday was the negative mirror of the last
in terms of happy and sad.
first off i am no longer with child.
If it once was a baby it no longer is. What is more worrying is the fact that there is a small clump of cells they spotted where the falopian tubes meet the uterus. It could be remnants of the miscarrige which would be the best posibility. Or it could be a corneal pregnancy which is non-viable (no heartbeat) which would need to be removed with a DnC. Or worst possibility it is a molar pregnancy which requires DnC and bloodwork periodically for the next year because it throws off hormones that can trigger cancers.
I'll be going in to see a ObGyn as early as monday because they need to figure this out for the proper steps. I know i'm going to miscarry or have it DnC but i'm in limbo for now. also if i miscarry over the weekend i get to visit the ER because if it is option B or C it needs to be treated differently in terms of care.
I wish this were a bad dream but it isnt.
second off.... well i dont have a second other than that i'm numb. it doesnt seem real yet because i've still got that thing which was a potentiality within me. i'm stuck in this place of limbo where i'm walking a tightrope over a pit and i can't see the net anymore.
first off i am no longer with child.
If it once was a baby it no longer is. What is more worrying is the fact that there is a small clump of cells they spotted where the falopian tubes meet the uterus. It could be remnants of the miscarrige which would be the best posibility. Or it could be a corneal pregnancy which is non-viable (no heartbeat) which would need to be removed with a DnC. Or worst possibility it is a molar pregnancy which requires DnC and bloodwork periodically for the next year because it throws off hormones that can trigger cancers.
I'll be going in to see a ObGyn as early as monday because they need to figure this out for the proper steps. I know i'm going to miscarry or have it DnC but i'm in limbo for now. also if i miscarry over the weekend i get to visit the ER because if it is option B or C it needs to be treated differently in terms of care.
I wish this were a bad dream but it isnt.
second off.... well i dont have a second other than that i'm numb. it doesnt seem real yet because i've still got that thing which was a potentiality within me. i'm stuck in this place of limbo where i'm walking a tightrope over a pit and i can't see the net anymore.