fanfic: Tenshi to Ningen: Ame no Heartbreak
Title: Tenshi to Ningen: Ame no Heartbreak
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst?
Disclaimer: Johnny owns the boys, I own the brain.
Summary: They had their last talk under the rain.
Author’s notes: Oneshot. Inspired by the early monsoon season in the country… PS things just sprouted and gone out of control…T.T
I'm flying.
I fly overhead the city, the tall buildings are no match for me, and I can out rise them, I can go higher than them! I can soar here and there. The sun doesn’t stop me; its heat is only warmth upon my skin. The rain does nothing to hurt me; they fall like the soft touch of a feather, I am invincible. But before I get lost in my thoughts, before I could fully bask in all the glory that I am given, that I am privileged, I must first do my duty.
I fly down, sweep past through windows, race with zephyr and stop.
I have arrived.
He’s up there. He’s up there lying. Lying, just lying on a soft white bed surrounded with flowers and cards, more flowers and more cards.
I step in the room through the window and watch him. He’s asleep. Peacefully asleep that it bothers me.
How come such a lovely creature who looks like an angel is not an angel himself but a mere human being? How come his sleeping form radiates serenity when behind it awaits a gloomy future for those who loved him. How come, how come?
Why is it that when I was supposed to be happy I feel so sad?
I have been waiting for this moment all my life since I was assigned to him. I watched him everyday of his life. I loved him all throughout the years. I should be happy now because the chance of being together with him is highly possible but, why though, I feel sad, guilty.
You should know, I did not wish for him t be like this. Like you I did not know. It just happened. One day, I found out that he only has a few months to live. The next thing I know, he’s already dying on his death bed.
He moved! So suddenly he moved and fluttered his eyes. I’m getting giddy. It has always been a pleasure to me to see him open his eyes. He had one of the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. But his eyes were not shining anymore; they had long lost the spark no matter how I beg Kami-sama to give them back.
I knew it was time. I glanced back out the window and for the first time I took notice of how furiously the rain was pounding outside contrary to what I have felt them against me earlier.
I slowly stroked his arm and then his cheek. I know by now that he could sense my presence. I had to hold back myself from crying or hugging him. The imploring look on his eyes is too much for my heart to handle.
“Kamenashi Kazuya, follow me.” I say trying to sound as calm as I could.
I watch him rise out from the bed. He was clad in the silly hospital garments he was made to wear. I must admit he looked good in them but not as good as he was in normal clothes.
He gave me calm look; I gave him a sad smile. A sad one because I had a feeling something is going to come. Something that would tear me apart…apart from him.
I motioned for him to give me his hand and together we stepped out from the window and into the pouring rain that felt like nothing.
I tightened my grip around his hand and he gave me a squeeze.
I start to lead him up there. And as we rose against the rain, I hear him speak to me.
“I’ve seen you before.”
I turned and gave him a look.
“I did see you before, when I was younger; I’d often catch a glimpse of you. I’d see you wherever I go…”
“I did not know that.” I answered him truthfully. I was clueless that he could see me.
“Will I see you when I’m up there?”
His question made me stop. The rain clouds were grayer than before, the rain drops were bigger than before, I can hear their pounding against concrete louder than before.
But before I could answer him, lightning forks imprisoned me.
I can tell he was surprised by the suddenness of lightning. The rolling of thunder sounded afterwards, I can see him tremble. I knew then he was afraid.
“I… I can’t see you.” I managed to say.
“Why?”
“Because Kami-sama forbids me to.”
“But why?”
I smiled sadly at him. Looking up, I saw another angel coming to get him.
“You’re a pure soul Kazuya. I cannot have you.”
The other angel was approaching fast despite his sloe descent. I gave him another glance and I was surprised that he had inched closer to me, ignoring the heat of the lightning that imprisons me.
He gave me a kiss: a soft touching of lips, his against mine. It was innocent and yet at the same time, it was tainting. I am an angel, messenger of God. I cannot fall in love with a human, but I broke the law. This is my punishment.
I slowly feel the drops of rain against my skin, hard and hurting, I’m getting soaked by the pouring rain, my clothes wet, dripping wet. I can feel the feathers in my wings slowly loosen and fall beyond me.
“I love you.” He says. I watch the trail of tears on his cheeks. “I have loved you for the longest of time…but why can’t I have you?”
“I’m sorry. Maybe in the next life, we can have each other.”
I watch him as the other angel finally reached him and enveloped him in his wings. I watch the light slowly glow around them.
Yes. All I could do is watch because right now, I am now falling into the void with those who sinned against Kami-sama’s law. But before he and I could disappear from each others sight, I whispered the words that I know he longed to hear.
“I love you, too.”
I watch him disappear into that void. I watch the many hands that reached out tugged at him. I catch a glimpse of his wet face, and for the first time I can clearly make out the tear tracks on his face.
I hear him whisper those words I long to hear. And then, an ear splitting scream tore through the pouring rain.
Silence.
There was silence only the pounding rain can be heard and the soft humming of the angel that is currently enveloping me in warmth and feathers.
Despite the silence, rain and hums, inside me I hear my heart slowly breaking into pieces.