sometimes i just want to scream!
Current mood:
enraged
i'm going back and forth between being furious and embarrassed. i love my brother but sometimes he just makes me want to scream.
i went to a friend's last night with a bunch of the singles to watch a movie. since another friend was going to be picking up some others at the church he picked me up as well. i had a great time and got to play some pool for the first time in a few years (it felt great!) and then we went home. now on the way home, he and i talked about random stuff and i just had fun chatting and getting to know him; which is fantasmic because i don't usually have enough in common with people to have a real, two-sided, conversation in the first place. anyhow, we sat in front of my house for a bit talking, then i went inside. no big deal right? .... wrong.
today, in the middle of church, ian went up to two of my friends and claimed that i had been kissing the guy in his car. of course it never happened, but that's not the point. the point is that i'm sick of my brother doing this to me. i have several guy friends and i like to have guys as friends; but if i even glance at a someone, or mention a name, he instantly thinks i've got a crush on the guy and goes out of his way to tell everyone. he's been doing it since i turned 14 and i'm so furious and embarrassed that i could scream! i love my brother, but i'm tired of those guys looking at me funny or having akward moments around them just because of something untrue that ian said. half of those people i didn't even know more than their name or if i wanted to be friends with them, let alone like them. please... someone tell me... when will it stop?!
*sighs* there's my rant. i feel a little bit better i guess... i just don't want to lose anymore possible friends >,<
kisses to the kissable and hugs to the rest of ya'
~kit~