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Today is potentially a pivotal day for me. I say potentially because I have little trust in my ability to follow through, which is part of the problem. At any rate, today I asked for help
I've been sitting on this paper for John for a long time now, and I've totally put it off and now I'm looking at a late night ten pages. Anyway, I was really getting down on myself for that, and I had a little breakdown. So I called the health center, but they put me on hold so I hung up. I almost let my pride get the best of me. But I called back and they told me to come in and go to the counseling center. So I did, and I talked with this wonderful gal Kate, and she just let me boil over in there. I told her about school and drugs and anxiety and depression and guilt and shame and loneliness and fear and it just felt so good to let it out along with a lot of tears. So now I'm really tired and I still need to write that paper, but I've known for months now that my meds weren't cutting it and I need additional support. And today I got some, so I'm going to give myself a little pat on the back.
Now I need to go check in at my new job and see what's up! Then I guess I'll come back and get on that paper...
I've been sitting on this paper for John for a long time now, and I've totally put it off and now I'm looking at a late night ten pages. Anyway, I was really getting down on myself for that, and I had a little breakdown. So I called the health center, but they put me on hold so I hung up. I almost let my pride get the best of me. But I called back and they told me to come in and go to the counseling center. So I did, and I talked with this wonderful gal Kate, and she just let me boil over in there. I told her about school and drugs and anxiety and depression and guilt and shame and loneliness and fear and it just felt so good to let it out along with a lot of tears. So now I'm really tired and I still need to write that paper, but I've known for months now that my meds weren't cutting it and I need additional support. And today I got some, so I'm going to give myself a little pat on the back.
Now I need to go check in at my new job and see what's up! Then I guess I'll come back and get on that paper...