You can start hating me again
Ok, so I made up my mind! I did it! I actually did it! Which is so incredibly bizarre because just a few hours ago, my parents were here at school and we were talking about my future and I was so incredibly miserable. Like really, I was. And everything they suggested just sounded stupid. They had suggested business, biology, accounting, law, etc. Whatever. I wasn't interested in any of it. I never was. It just never crossed my mind but then my dad said the worst possible thing that could convince me to do any job: theme parks. Ok, so I still wasn't convinced and even tonight I was sobbing about it how I didn't know what I wanted to do, I felt so pressured, etc. But as I was walking back from Julianne's it just finally hit me - why not try business? Why not???? After all I've always wanted to run a theme park and who do you think does it? I like being in charge, I love power, I love making decisions And believe it or not I actually do love numbers. Ok, well actually I love math - dislike calculus and physics, but I've always loved all other math and stat. Honestly, I enjoyed doing the math section of the SAT so it's not that I'm an anti-math person. BUSINESS. Yes. And so now I'm on a mini high. And it's rally strange because when my parents left around 11 I was on the verge of tears and i did cry a lot when they left. But I just did some more thinking and suddenly got happy about the prospect of business. So even though it was almost 1 in the morning I was just like "You know what - I'm going to call my parents and tell them so they can stop worrying" And that I did. And of course they both thought I had been drinking. I probably sounded like I was because I was really giddy on the phone and even this sounds like a drunk lj entry but I swear it's not. The last thing I had to drink was grape soda so I'm more black than drunk at the moment. And you know what? How can you go wrong with business? Like seriously what's the worse that can happen? Like it's not like I'm going to get a degree and then not make any money or even have a hard time finding a job. And maybe I'll hate it - so what!!!! We just go back to square one and start over. Of course then more drastic measures might have to be taken (aka transfer or something) but until then I'M A BUSINESS MAJOR!!! Well not yet but I'm so happy about it. Like maybe I'm just happy that I figured something out that I could like doing. I don't know but this really does sound like a drunk or really sarcastic entry and its not. I swear it's not. And I don't care if people are mad at me for not pursuing humanities at the moment. That can always come later if at all. I need to decided my own life and not try to do something because people think I would be good at it. Yeah so maybe months from now you'll be reading a similar ENGLISH or HISTORY entry but for now BUSINESS. Because after all as they say in Avenue Q, everything in life is only for now....
GAH
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