Lost & Found (Chapter 41)
Jun knocked at the door to his study. The door was halfway open and he there was insecurity as he cleared his throat. “Kaz’?”
Nino glanced up from where he was bent over a few papers scribbling down notes and making markings now and then as he checked things in the book in front of him. He was not that fond of music theory, but sadly his lessons didn’t only mean that he got to play whatever he wanted, but that he also knew about the theory behind everything. He put the pen down entirely when he saw how insecure Jun looked right now. His gaze turning serious.
“Did something happen?”
Jun shook his head as he pulled at his hair. “Not really,” he mumbled. “But do you have a few minutes to spare? There is something I need you to help me with if possible.”
“Of course. Just a second I need to mark the page,” Nino mumbled writing something down in his book and putting the papers away cleanly before standing up. It was seldom that Jun would come into his room when he was studying, but Nino had kept the door open, a clear invitation for everybody that lived in the house to go in and disturb him if they wanted or something important was going on.
Jun walked out of the room with Nino on his heels. Jun was looking nervous, and Nino was honestly worried for his boyfriend, but Jun had decided to talk to them and finally explain what was bothering him.
That something was bothering Jun both Nino and Ohno had already realised since he was silent a lot in the last few days after he came home from his university. He took better care of himself though so neither Nino nor Ohno bothered him just yet.
“Do you want some tea?” Nino asked as they were in the living room, and Jun nodded as he fell on the sofa with a groan. He played with one of Ohno’s sketchpad before flipping it open to an empty side to make some scribbles on it. Ohno never minded if they took one of his sketchbooks to write notes down or anything as long as they didn’t use any pages he had started to draw on.
“Yes, please. Green tea?”
“Got it! Just a second,” he said with a smile as he ruffled Jun’s soft locks with just the tips of his fingers before vanishing to the kitchen to prepare two cups of tea - green tea for Jun and white tea for himself. With the cups in his hands, he came back to the living room and put them down on the low table in front of the sofa before climbing up on the couch beside Jun.
Jun put the sketch pad to the side as he opened his arms for Nino to snuggle up close to him. Nino did so without any more prompting and pulled his legs beside him as he laid his head on Jun’s chest, listening to the heartbeat with a small smile. Jun’s arms closed around him, one arm was put over his chest the other over his shoulders, and his hands closed around Nino’s hips. That way, Nino could almost not move, but it wasn’t too much. Luckily for him, Nino liked such closeness to his lovers.
“So what is going on in your head?” he prompted after a few minutes of silence, as he carefully nudged him into the stomach.
“Don’t you think the sofa would look better if we turn it around?” Jun asked, making Nino giggle.
“Whatever you prefer as long as I can play my games comfortably,” he said. Neither he nor Ohno cared much, and he liked the glint in Jun’s eyes when he was allowed to redecorate something, and it seemed that Jun found almost weekly something to change or new to put up.
“Hey, Kaz’?”
“Yes, J?” Nino asked in a teasing voice, muffling a laugh when Jun pinched his waist sharply. “Sorry, sorry. What is wrong. Come on, tell me?” Nino said, peering up to him. Jun grumbled slightly as he put his chin on Nino’s head so that he wasn’t able to look into his face anymore.
“I think I don’t want to continue my studies,” Jun said hesitantly, staring into the dark hair of Nino and tightening his grip so that Nino wouldn’t be able to look at him or move too much.
Nino, though, just hummed low in his throat as he kissed the arm in front of his face. He was not that surprised, to be honest. Jun had strong likes, dislikes and opinions on things in general. Also, it was quite normal for most people of his age, not to know precisely what they wanted to do. He even knew that it was different for him and Ohno who had been formed for their likes since they were young.
Nino himself would be totally lost if someone told him he needed to decide something else than music. It was all that he had known since forever. For Ohno, it was similar. He had always drawn what was on his mind to escape from his fears and loneliness, and he had gotten to like it. It gave him loads of free time, and people liked his pictures. Ohno never showed his most personal ones to anybody but his family and lovers but the ones for the public he never had problems to sell them, if neither Jun nor Nino told him they wanted them later on.
“And do you know what you want to do instead?”
“Not really,” Jun sighed. “And I feel bad. You both are working hard to fulfil your dreams and for me.”
“We work for us, J. Not just for you. And you need to get rid of that guilt.”
“But…”
“But you are still young. You were thrown into a relationship with Oh-chan and me when you were just a child, you have watched us running towards a dream we had since we were small and that are our hobbies. You like to decorate our home, the homes of your friends as well and you do it well. But that’s because you know what we like and you chose your friends so of course, we have all similar likes. But to do it for strangers? To demanding people after some rules that I really don’t get at all? To people that look down to you just because they are going to pay you to make them a home they like, but really only agree to their wishes without regard to how it will really look? That’s not you. And that’s okay. It’s okay to realise it’s not what you want or would like to do forever. You are lucky to realise it before your whole life is consumed by it. Before you spent years studying it and hating it,” Nino said honestly.
Nino carefully moved in Jun’s arms, forcing him to loosen his grip that way, so that he could turn around and climb on his lap properly. He caressed his cheek with his thumb and kissed his lips warmly.
“Think about what you want to do. Take a small break. Most students decide to take a term off after school to think about what they want to do. To go on trips or anything. You didn’t, and I won’t tell you to go away for a few weeks, because honestly, I would miss you too much, but take a step back and think about what you want. You have such a great creative mind. You can achieve anything you set your eyes on, and I believe if you know for sure what you want to do as a job, later on, you will succeed in anything. More time now could help you to find a good part-time job. I saw job openings at the coffee shop we met for dates when we were still at school.”
Jun blushed slightly under his gaze and at his words. He was overwhelmed with all the trust Nino set into him. Trust that was similar to the one Ohno put into both of them.
“You should tell Satoshi, tonight, when he comes home, okay?”
“Okay,” Jun said as he kissed Nino’s forehead.
“Thank you for your understanding,” he whispered.
Nino giggled as he hugged him close.
“Of course, always.” Then with a devilish smirk on his lips, he raked his fingers through Jun’s hair. “Now, how about…” he licked his lips as he looked deeply into his eyes. “…we get a kitten?”
A/N: Sorry for the short chapter XD but I wanted to end on this sentence. But if you want more… (And please don’t hate me XD I don’t know what came over me but I miss Matsumiya and tomorrow is my birthday so an early birthday gift?)
Jun gawked at him for a second or two until the words had sunk in. With a growl, he pushed the cackling man from his lap and onto his back on the sofa. He climbed on top of Nino to press a kiss against the hollow of his neck. Nino moaned slightly high-pitched, and Jun grinned as he nosed the soft skin just behind his ear. He knew how weak Nino was to their touches.
“Why would we need to get a cat if we have you?” he asked when the low sigh coming out of Nino could be interpreted as a purr. His teeth nipped at the delicate skin, smiling at the slight mewling sounds falling from Nino’s lips as his tongue traced the collarbone alongside the collar of his low ridden shirt. A hand wandered over the body from Nino, pinching slightly one of the nubs hidden under the cloth.
Nino’s body moved his middle pushing upwards, meeting Jun’s and Jun could feel the heat coming from the shape under him as he continued to tease the upper body, tracing and caressing all the spots he knew made Nino crazy with want. Soon enough Nino laid naked under him, his eyes closed, sweaty locks clinging to his forehead while he breathed harshly with moans falling from his lips. Jun smiled as he moved up again, kissing him deeply. His tongue teased Nino’s before he moved back slowly.
Nino’s eyes were glassy when he opened them to look at the younger man above him. There was a teasing grin on Jun’s face as his fingers wandered over the veins of his stiff dick. “I could just leave you,” Jun whispered, electing a low whine from the other as he lifted his hips to get more friction. Jun’s hands were warm but firm on his hips as he held him down, pressing his own hardening cock against Nino’s middle.
“Don’t,” Nino groaned as he could feel the heat even through the harsh cloth of his jeans. Jun rubbed himself against him, making him moan again, his hands moving down to hold Jun more tightly and press himself against him. But Jun clicked his tongue as he let go of Nino’s cock to hold his wrist and put his arms above Nino’s head. A smile was on his lips as he watched Nino under him.
Like this, the other man looked beautiful. Nino’s face was flushed under the heat and want he felt, sweat and spit clinging to different body parts, showing clearly off what they were doing while punctuated with small love bites that Jun knew would get darker with time. His cock was standing proudly from his body the first drops of ejaculate clinging to his tips. A small smirk appeared on Jun’s face as he let go of Nino’s wrist, his fingers tracing the veins again until he reached the tip, catching those drops with his fingertips. He licked one finger clean with a hum, before moving closer to Nino’s lips with the still stained fingers, before tracing his lips with them. “You should taste yourself,” Jun whispered against his ear before biting the soft flesh.
Nino groaned his eyes pressing close at the foreign taste. “Sadist,” he whispered, trying to push against him again, but Jun’s hand was back on his waist, holding him down.
“Only because you look so cute like that,” Jun said with a grin, watching Nino grimaced as he automatically licked his lips. Jun moved forward, joining Nino’s tongue on Nino’s lips before starting an open-mouthed kiss.
Nino moaned into the kiss. “Please, take me,” he asked after long minutes of more teasing against the swollen lips on his own. He could feel the smirk against his own lips as Jun pressed his wrist together for the last time.
“Keep them there then.”
Nino nodded in answer, groaning as he felt Jun moving on top of him, his long fingers slowly breaching his hole in preparation while his other hand opened his jeans. A shiver broke out on his body when he could hear the zipper being drawn and soon enough Jun’s body was above him again, the fingers gone, as he held himself up by them to look at Nino’s face as he thrust in. The following thrusts were sharp and fast - neither of them would’ve been able to stand a slower pace right now and soon, without even being touched Nino came, shuddering as he felt Jun coming inside of him.
He sighed as he felt bonelessly into the cushions. Jun slipped out of him, smoothing down his frown at that feeling and for a moment they just laid side by side, before Jun sighed and climbed off the sofa to get a washcloth to clean them. Just as they were lazily kissing on the couch, with Jun putting a blanket over Nino to stop him from getting cold Ohno’s voice added itself into the silence.
“I hope you are up to round two.”
Nino blinked watching Ohno’s lazy smile as he came closer, dropping kisses to their foreheads. “Only if there is food first.”
“I could offer cream and fruits,” Ohno said with a smirk on his face as he took Nino’s chin in his hand to move his face and be able to devour his lips. “You would make a good dish.”
“You are both awful,” Nino said helplessly giggling when Ohno winked at him, while Jun hummed that that was an excellent idea.
Nino glanced up from where he was bent over a few papers scribbling down notes and making markings now and then as he checked things in the book in front of him. He was not that fond of music theory, but sadly his lessons didn’t only mean that he got to play whatever he wanted, but that he also knew about the theory behind everything. He put the pen down entirely when he saw how insecure Jun looked right now. His gaze turning serious.
“Did something happen?”
Jun shook his head as he pulled at his hair. “Not really,” he mumbled. “But do you have a few minutes to spare? There is something I need you to help me with if possible.”
“Of course. Just a second I need to mark the page,” Nino mumbled writing something down in his book and putting the papers away cleanly before standing up. It was seldom that Jun would come into his room when he was studying, but Nino had kept the door open, a clear invitation for everybody that lived in the house to go in and disturb him if they wanted or something important was going on.
Jun walked out of the room with Nino on his heels. Jun was looking nervous, and Nino was honestly worried for his boyfriend, but Jun had decided to talk to them and finally explain what was bothering him.
That something was bothering Jun both Nino and Ohno had already realised since he was silent a lot in the last few days after he came home from his university. He took better care of himself though so neither Nino nor Ohno bothered him just yet.
“Do you want some tea?” Nino asked as they were in the living room, and Jun nodded as he fell on the sofa with a groan. He played with one of Ohno’s sketchpad before flipping it open to an empty side to make some scribbles on it. Ohno never minded if they took one of his sketchbooks to write notes down or anything as long as they didn’t use any pages he had started to draw on.
“Yes, please. Green tea?”
“Got it! Just a second,” he said with a smile as he ruffled Jun’s soft locks with just the tips of his fingers before vanishing to the kitchen to prepare two cups of tea - green tea for Jun and white tea for himself. With the cups in his hands, he came back to the living room and put them down on the low table in front of the sofa before climbing up on the couch beside Jun.
Jun put the sketch pad to the side as he opened his arms for Nino to snuggle up close to him. Nino did so without any more prompting and pulled his legs beside him as he laid his head on Jun’s chest, listening to the heartbeat with a small smile. Jun’s arms closed around him, one arm was put over his chest the other over his shoulders, and his hands closed around Nino’s hips. That way, Nino could almost not move, but it wasn’t too much. Luckily for him, Nino liked such closeness to his lovers.
“So what is going on in your head?” he prompted after a few minutes of silence, as he carefully nudged him into the stomach.
“Don’t you think the sofa would look better if we turn it around?” Jun asked, making Nino giggle.
“Whatever you prefer as long as I can play my games comfortably,” he said. Neither he nor Ohno cared much, and he liked the glint in Jun’s eyes when he was allowed to redecorate something, and it seemed that Jun found almost weekly something to change or new to put up.
“Hey, Kaz’?”
“Yes, J?” Nino asked in a teasing voice, muffling a laugh when Jun pinched his waist sharply. “Sorry, sorry. What is wrong. Come on, tell me?” Nino said, peering up to him. Jun grumbled slightly as he put his chin on Nino’s head so that he wasn’t able to look into his face anymore.
“I think I don’t want to continue my studies,” Jun said hesitantly, staring into the dark hair of Nino and tightening his grip so that Nino wouldn’t be able to look at him or move too much.
Nino, though, just hummed low in his throat as he kissed the arm in front of his face. He was not that surprised, to be honest. Jun had strong likes, dislikes and opinions on things in general. Also, it was quite normal for most people of his age, not to know precisely what they wanted to do. He even knew that it was different for him and Ohno who had been formed for their likes since they were young.
Nino himself would be totally lost if someone told him he needed to decide something else than music. It was all that he had known since forever. For Ohno, it was similar. He had always drawn what was on his mind to escape from his fears and loneliness, and he had gotten to like it. It gave him loads of free time, and people liked his pictures. Ohno never showed his most personal ones to anybody but his family and lovers but the ones for the public he never had problems to sell them, if neither Jun nor Nino told him they wanted them later on.
“And do you know what you want to do instead?”
“Not really,” Jun sighed. “And I feel bad. You both are working hard to fulfil your dreams and for me.”
“We work for us, J. Not just for you. And you need to get rid of that guilt.”
“But…”
“But you are still young. You were thrown into a relationship with Oh-chan and me when you were just a child, you have watched us running towards a dream we had since we were small and that are our hobbies. You like to decorate our home, the homes of your friends as well and you do it well. But that’s because you know what we like and you chose your friends so of course, we have all similar likes. But to do it for strangers? To demanding people after some rules that I really don’t get at all? To people that look down to you just because they are going to pay you to make them a home they like, but really only agree to their wishes without regard to how it will really look? That’s not you. And that’s okay. It’s okay to realise it’s not what you want or would like to do forever. You are lucky to realise it before your whole life is consumed by it. Before you spent years studying it and hating it,” Nino said honestly.
Nino carefully moved in Jun’s arms, forcing him to loosen his grip that way, so that he could turn around and climb on his lap properly. He caressed his cheek with his thumb and kissed his lips warmly.
“Think about what you want to do. Take a small break. Most students decide to take a term off after school to think about what they want to do. To go on trips or anything. You didn’t, and I won’t tell you to go away for a few weeks, because honestly, I would miss you too much, but take a step back and think about what you want. You have such a great creative mind. You can achieve anything you set your eyes on, and I believe if you know for sure what you want to do as a job, later on, you will succeed in anything. More time now could help you to find a good part-time job. I saw job openings at the coffee shop we met for dates when we were still at school.”
Jun blushed slightly under his gaze and at his words. He was overwhelmed with all the trust Nino set into him. Trust that was similar to the one Ohno put into both of them.
“You should tell Satoshi, tonight, when he comes home, okay?”
“Okay,” Jun said as he kissed Nino’s forehead.
“Thank you for your understanding,” he whispered.
Nino giggled as he hugged him close.
“Of course, always.” Then with a devilish smirk on his lips, he raked his fingers through Jun’s hair. “Now, how about…” he licked his lips as he looked deeply into his eyes. “…we get a kitten?”
A/N: Sorry for the short chapter XD but I wanted to end on this sentence. But if you want more… (And please don’t hate me XD I don’t know what came over me but I miss Matsumiya and tomorrow is my birthday so an early birthday gift?)
Jun gawked at him for a second or two until the words had sunk in. With a growl, he pushed the cackling man from his lap and onto his back on the sofa. He climbed on top of Nino to press a kiss against the hollow of his neck. Nino moaned slightly high-pitched, and Jun grinned as he nosed the soft skin just behind his ear. He knew how weak Nino was to their touches.
“Why would we need to get a cat if we have you?” he asked when the low sigh coming out of Nino could be interpreted as a purr. His teeth nipped at the delicate skin, smiling at the slight mewling sounds falling from Nino’s lips as his tongue traced the collarbone alongside the collar of his low ridden shirt. A hand wandered over the body from Nino, pinching slightly one of the nubs hidden under the cloth.
Nino’s body moved his middle pushing upwards, meeting Jun’s and Jun could feel the heat coming from the shape under him as he continued to tease the upper body, tracing and caressing all the spots he knew made Nino crazy with want. Soon enough Nino laid naked under him, his eyes closed, sweaty locks clinging to his forehead while he breathed harshly with moans falling from his lips. Jun smiled as he moved up again, kissing him deeply. His tongue teased Nino’s before he moved back slowly.
Nino’s eyes were glassy when he opened them to look at the younger man above him. There was a teasing grin on Jun’s face as his fingers wandered over the veins of his stiff dick. “I could just leave you,” Jun whispered, electing a low whine from the other as he lifted his hips to get more friction. Jun’s hands were warm but firm on his hips as he held him down, pressing his own hardening cock against Nino’s middle.
“Don’t,” Nino groaned as he could feel the heat even through the harsh cloth of his jeans. Jun rubbed himself against him, making him moan again, his hands moving down to hold Jun more tightly and press himself against him. But Jun clicked his tongue as he let go of Nino’s cock to hold his wrist and put his arms above Nino’s head. A smile was on his lips as he watched Nino under him.
Like this, the other man looked beautiful. Nino’s face was flushed under the heat and want he felt, sweat and spit clinging to different body parts, showing clearly off what they were doing while punctuated with small love bites that Jun knew would get darker with time. His cock was standing proudly from his body the first drops of ejaculate clinging to his tips. A small smirk appeared on Jun’s face as he let go of Nino’s wrist, his fingers tracing the veins again until he reached the tip, catching those drops with his fingertips. He licked one finger clean with a hum, before moving closer to Nino’s lips with the still stained fingers, before tracing his lips with them. “You should taste yourself,” Jun whispered against his ear before biting the soft flesh.
Nino groaned his eyes pressing close at the foreign taste. “Sadist,” he whispered, trying to push against him again, but Jun’s hand was back on his waist, holding him down.
“Only because you look so cute like that,” Jun said with a grin, watching Nino grimaced as he automatically licked his lips. Jun moved forward, joining Nino’s tongue on Nino’s lips before starting an open-mouthed kiss.
Nino moaned into the kiss. “Please, take me,” he asked after long minutes of more teasing against the swollen lips on his own. He could feel the smirk against his own lips as Jun pressed his wrist together for the last time.
“Keep them there then.”
Nino nodded in answer, groaning as he felt Jun moving on top of him, his long fingers slowly breaching his hole in preparation while his other hand opened his jeans. A shiver broke out on his body when he could hear the zipper being drawn and soon enough Jun’s body was above him again, the fingers gone, as he held himself up by them to look at Nino’s face as he thrust in. The following thrusts were sharp and fast - neither of them would’ve been able to stand a slower pace right now and soon, without even being touched Nino came, shuddering as he felt Jun coming inside of him.
He sighed as he felt bonelessly into the cushions. Jun slipped out of him, smoothing down his frown at that feeling and for a moment they just laid side by side, before Jun sighed and climbed off the sofa to get a washcloth to clean them. Just as they were lazily kissing on the couch, with Jun putting a blanket over Nino to stop him from getting cold Ohno’s voice added itself into the silence.
“I hope you are up to round two.”
Nino blinked watching Ohno’s lazy smile as he came closer, dropping kisses to their foreheads. “Only if there is food first.”
“I could offer cream and fruits,” Ohno said with a smirk on his face as he took Nino’s chin in his hand to move his face and be able to devour his lips. “You would make a good dish.”
“You are both awful,” Nino said helplessly giggling when Ohno winked at him, while Jun hummed that that was an excellent idea.