I need a hug!
My life has turned into a river of uncertainty. I don't understand how the people who mean the most to me do not accept Otis as the one I should be "wasting" my life with. My mom asked me just yesterday, "Why Otis? Why a black guy?" I told her that I just don't know. But really, I know why Otis. He makes me feel safe, cherished, alive, and her gives me a reason to not give up, to just keep going. What does it matter that his skin is darker than mine? I thought my parents had raised me to not see those kind of differences. So what does it matter? I love Otis. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He is, to me, everything I need.
One of my best friends doesn't approve of him. I feel like we're drifting apart because of him. I feel like I have to choose between Otis and my friend. How do you choose between the person who makes you happy and the person who was as close to you as a sister, the person who you could talk to about anything? Now, my friend doesn't seem to care. She alwaystold me that if Otis did anything to hurt me, she would kill him, that if he ever made me cry and broke my hearthe would not live to see another day. But what about when she hurts me, makes me cry and breaks my heart because she can't accept that I'm happy? I call her and she's out with a friend. I tell her to call me sometime. Where's the call? Where's the invitation to hang out? Where's the sister I had? I can't find her. I think she died. No, she just gave up on a friendship that meant the world to me.
Why does the person you completes me have to be the reason behind a loss of a friend and parents who don't want to understand.
Otis could never hurt me. He would rather hurt himself than hurt me. Otis wouldn't cheat on me because he knows there is no one else that could love him like I do, and he also knows I would die inside if he ever did. Otis will never force me to do something I don't want to do (except try new foods) because he knows that he would lose me if he did. Otis loves me and would do anything to protect and support me. Throughout all of life's challenges he has promised to be there with me, and together we will live and raise a family. I will live my life with the one I feel God to sent to me no matter what. I hope everyone can except that.
One of my best friends doesn't approve of him. I feel like we're drifting apart because of him. I feel like I have to choose between Otis and my friend. How do you choose between the person who makes you happy and the person who was as close to you as a sister, the person who you could talk to about anything? Now, my friend doesn't seem to care. She alwaystold me that if Otis did anything to hurt me, she would kill him, that if he ever made me cry and broke my hearthe would not live to see another day. But what about when she hurts me, makes me cry and breaks my heart because she can't accept that I'm happy? I call her and she's out with a friend. I tell her to call me sometime. Where's the call? Where's the invitation to hang out? Where's the sister I had? I can't find her. I think she died. No, she just gave up on a friendship that meant the world to me.
Why does the person you completes me have to be the reason behind a loss of a friend and parents who don't want to understand.
Otis could never hurt me. He would rather hurt himself than hurt me. Otis wouldn't cheat on me because he knows there is no one else that could love him like I do, and he also knows I would die inside if he ever did. Otis will never force me to do something I don't want to do (except try new foods) because he knows that he would lose me if he did. Otis loves me and would do anything to protect and support me. Throughout all of life's challenges he has promised to be there with me, and together we will live and raise a family. I will live my life with the one I feel God to sent to me no matter what. I hope everyone can except that.