fucking dad has covid19
I just found out an hour ago. I'm just completely melting down. I'm a therapist for kids and I feel like I need to call in to work tomorrow because my head is just a fucking mess. I'm tired of being tough for other people. My wife is having a really hard time already and spent nearly an hour last night crying about worry for her own family. I love her and support her but I don't know what I can do now. I have to take the initiative to help my family deal with stuff quarantined, but what I really want to do is just melt into a pile on the floor and give up completely. I'm so filled with worry that I don't know what to do. I don't want to deal with it. It's not only fucking hard, but it's fucking weird and scary too. Like I don't know if my grandparents and my dad and my mom are going to be fine or if someone's going to the hospital for another two weeks. And meanwhile I can't see them in person. And they can't see each other. They're locked in different rooms in the same fucking house.
And I have to go in to work tomorrow because my job is essential. I feel like I'm going to throw up. And this is not the time and place to post shit like this on facebook. Although everyone will find out eventually.