I CAN'T HELP YOU FIX YOURSELF!!!!! BUT AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED!!!!!!!
There are so many things going on right now that I can';t even explain them all.. I'll just list the things on my mind.... Because Im about to just say fuck it and not worry about it....
- Ish, Im really fucking tired of this shit, " I really dont want to fight, but I love you so I guess that means I can't lose you completly so lets just be friends.." Fuck that. We dont have to be friends if that's how it is.. What is it? You get to say your piece and then when you get tired of mine you say we'll finish it tomorrow and never call? Dont do me any favors by sticking around if it's just and obligation... Okay? Thanks
-Jamie and Caroline, I saw them together yesterday I don't really know what's going on with that but I'll tell you when I left Jadi's yesterday I felt like a fool and I hated that. I felt like everyone else knew what was going on but me and I also heard a few things that I think Jamie lied to me about. But whatever you know. Once she reads this she'll be like WTF and tell me whatever.
-Heather I mean there isnt much about heather on my mind about her.. Shes just on my mind. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HINEY HOLE!!
-I've been thinking about Jen too. Ashtons ex. I don't know why.
-Oh and I've been thinking about telling amanda to go fuck herself with the schedule she has me on all weekend. I'm about to tell her to stop working me on the weekends. Fuck that shit. Dean's last day is tomorrow. I fucking hate that. I'm going to miss him so much.
I dont really know what else to say... Im awake today. I feel alive..