It's simple but not easy
I'm more confident about the relationship now than I was when I woke up. Not that I wasn't when I woke up though. Funny how, communication is so needed and yet miscommunication can ruin it. For whatever it's worth, he brings it out in me. He gets me talking. And I know that I have mouth and I do chatter, but for the past few years I really don't use it to express myself inside, you know, express my feelings.
I'm quite detached.
I've summed it up to be being more like a guy that way, but considering he is a guy and he has no problem saying what's a) on his mind and b) what's on his mind (haha), it makes me realize how guarded I am about it all. I won't tell you how I feel, but if you know me really well, you would know there is more going on than I let on. But is that really fair?
And this whole communicating thing can be quite scary.
I feel as though I sit there bracing myself for what might fly out of his mouth.
But a strange thing happens, I actually want to hear it. I don't want to be afraid of it. I want to be that person he wants to share his thoughts with. Actually, I want to be that person to all my friends, but I've learned that I have been far to chicken to actually do so. Just sit and listen and sit and communicate.
Truthfully, part of his communication was scary tonight. It was something I didn't think I wanted to hear. But he needed to say it.
And I listened.
And I didn't like what I heard.
Until that is, he kept on talking. And he kept on explaining.
And he made me understand the things I would rather not discuss or rather not know.
And now here I am. 30 minutes later, enlightened. And more knowledgeable.
And really, much more closer to him.
So it really is true, all those relationship advice guides really do mean, communication is key. Honesty is key. For without it, you have nothing.
Makes me think.
I'm quite detached.
I've summed it up to be being more like a guy that way, but considering he is a guy and he has no problem saying what's a) on his mind and b) what's on his mind (haha), it makes me realize how guarded I am about it all. I won't tell you how I feel, but if you know me really well, you would know there is more going on than I let on. But is that really fair?
And this whole communicating thing can be quite scary.
I feel as though I sit there bracing myself for what might fly out of his mouth.
But a strange thing happens, I actually want to hear it. I don't want to be afraid of it. I want to be that person he wants to share his thoughts with. Actually, I want to be that person to all my friends, but I've learned that I have been far to chicken to actually do so. Just sit and listen and sit and communicate.
Truthfully, part of his communication was scary tonight. It was something I didn't think I wanted to hear. But he needed to say it.
And I listened.
And I didn't like what I heard.
Until that is, he kept on talking. And he kept on explaining.
And he made me understand the things I would rather not discuss or rather not know.
And now here I am. 30 minutes later, enlightened. And more knowledgeable.
And really, much more closer to him.
So it really is true, all those relationship advice guides really do mean, communication is key. Honesty is key. For without it, you have nothing.
Makes me think.