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[kipstain]

ive been down and out for a few so i've been drinking heavily for a while.
thats never good. theres days where i can stop, but some days are impossible not to. even by myself....

im tired of wishing and hoping. i wish there was a sign in my brain to point me in the right direction.
i guess im tired of complaining as well.

even though divided, friends and family are distant.

i write and play music every single day. its the only thing that helps me escape from reality.

i've been saving money for a car and a record.

ive been doing pretty well thus far, but see the record as more important.
i miss music.

i miss happiness.

i miss the times where making people bob there head was important.
i guess this all goes with age.

i never enjoyed cats until i met kate.
her cat moby is wonderful.
she sleeps on my stomach.

i kind of want one now.. lol :)

i wish for alot of things.
every 11:11, shooting star, or penny thrown i wish for the same thing.
for the people i love to be happy.

of course i wish the same for me, but in the time being i wish more for the others.
they are wonderful.

i am miserable...