4th of Feb
[mood|
Scared ]
[music| Michael Bolton - Go The Distance]
Today is Li Chun, aka the beginning of Spring in East Asian cultures,
where the Sheep goes and it's the Monkey's turn.
One brand new starting for the Chinese.
Yet, this morning..
I had a bad dream, self worst nightmare happened.
The dream started when I suddenly woke up from sleep, and from my huge window I saw those tall buildings which are in front of my house, one by one are falling, wrecking, from the furthest coming nearer and nearer.
Self started to panic, no warning alarms nor news (from gov or such), but heart has an answer. RUN!
So I woke everyone in the house, no time for explanation.
Just run! Something is definitely coming along the way, very quickly.
Sudden war or attack? By terrorist? Not even sure who..
Running away, to shelters, soldiers, stairs, some kind of cable cars to transport us to another safer spot etc, many new faces I've never seen before. All of us are sharing the same boat.
--omitted story--
By the end of story, I was informed of a certain news I've been hoping to be ok, turned out to be the opposite.
The soldier told me to visit the morgue(I think) the day after tomorrow to finish up things.
The next thing I knew, I decided to join them.
Asked to get trained. Grow stronger, having the strength to fight back. Avenge.
The soldier later agreed and left the room.
Then, self can't hold on anymore and just let everything out..
And only then I /finally/ woke (during the dream, self had been trying to wake up, as in thinking this might just be a bad dream, yet failed)
Took probably an hour to calm self and stop all the cries.
Eyes were so puffed up and tired.
Couldn't even fall back to sleep too. It was early in the 7am+.
Seriously I'm hoping, wishing this is not any premonitions or so.
I can't go on if I lose another dearest. My very last pillar.
While surfing the net (trying to calm self), reading an article and this person posted this one advice:
"And the only way to make life feel worth it, is to just live, really hard!
Enjoying life is what matters. Nobody with common sense wants to die.
Be very very alive!" -Berend Bot.