I just want to disconnect....
I am so tired of always being the one convincing pontential partners of how great of a human being I am. I've put way too much preassure on myself and I push those preassures on to other people. I thought I would be somewhere else right now, and I set up expectations for myself, but the only one that I've met is having a good job. I thought I would have a partner and maybe even a kid at this point It's hard, because I juxtapose my brother with myself and he is closer to the path that I have always expected for myself.
Ah well. San Francisco is starting to seem like a circus. I feel like everyone that I've met here has no substance. Like this town attracts a bunch of damaged people. At one point, I was also damaged I guess, and this town attracted me. I wanted the freedom, but "the love of a free man is never safe". I think I learned that from John, and people here are hella free. I know that when I meet the right one, that person will know I am great. They won't need any convincing.
Ah well. San Francisco is starting to seem like a circus. I feel like everyone that I've met here has no substance. Like this town attracts a bunch of damaged people. At one point, I was also damaged I guess, and this town attracted me. I wanted the freedom, but "the love of a free man is never safe". I think I learned that from John, and people here are hella free. I know that when I meet the right one, that person will know I am great. They won't need any convincing.