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[kionethan]

Man a lot of shyt has happened, My girlfriend Meka died. Man not jus any type of death..she killed herself. Maan im not gonna put all my Baby’s bizness out dere but man theres so much that she aint tell me, n we had so little time together.. this was da 1st girl dat ive truly loved since Kai’Yren Died and Kai-Yren was my 1st tru love, my heart, my everything..n after she died my whole world went died man, I was jus like fuk life n shyt u feel me? Man she was my everything and I noe that I was here. But me n Kai’Yren had a fight the very same night that she died. And I said all dat shyt to her n I never got to take it bak but I noe that she forgives me, cuz she’s my guardian angel. But otno Meka. From da jump of the Relationship she lied to me.. Bout almost everything except that she truly did love me, but she was afraid dat I was gonna leave her if she told me about her. But I told her that that’s the past n we are da future but hey nothing ever goes to plan. Me n her was omg..jus so much lies. N den come to find out she got arrested n called me from da jail thingy n I yelled and cussed her ass out and said a lot of shyt that I aint mean..n da very same day she tried to kill herself n they caught her in time den sent her to da jail infirmary dats where she died 2/3/06 man my world crashed again..i haven’t cried so long.. nor so hard in a long ass time.. I broke down like theres was no tomorrow. Man I still can’t accept it.. her N Kai’Yren died around da same time.. man Kai’yren died after my b-day she died b4 mine.. but ohh my god. Man I loved this girl so damn much..there was jus sumthin about her that caught my eye. But yet there was so much dat she needed to tell me in time and she couldn’t I wish that I could take bak all da shyt that I said to her..I am so SORRY n I love her so damn much,.. but She’s gone and iM already moving on.. it’s the best. Plus the past is the past..n now its time for me to make a new future. But she will never b 4gotten. It seems as though when people do shyt they don’t think of what happens to the people around them. She prolly aint even think of how it was going to affect me. People don’t take my emotions into consideration when they do me wrong..im ready jus to go stra8 cruddy on these females out her. They wanna play games, let dem do that but they aint bout to b doin it on my damn time. Im not the one for it, I may b young n wuteva but I refuse to b pulled down to anybody’s level. I should jus go real cruddy but im not like dat. Cuz it aint everybody’s fault. The ones dat did me wrong n shyt.. they got worse shyt comin for dem..so they can go head n keep on..
Ok heres 2 poems:



The Day You Left:

I got the call,
Not to long,
After you left.

I remember the very
Words used, “Sit, Down,
Take a breath (pause),
Ashley she’s gone”

My mouth dropped open,
And my world went blank.
For the first time in years,
I cried, cried and cried.
I just couldn’t believe it.

I still can’t accept the fact
That you just up and left me.
Everything was so good,
Excellent and wonderful,
But things got to hard for you.
I just wished I hadn’t said
All that shit to you.

I never got to tell you how much I love you,
And how much I miss you.

Hopefully, you’ll forgive me
And watch over me.

R.I.P.

I Still Remember:

I still remember…
Your voice,
Your touch,
Your eyes,
Your mind,
Your body,
Your routine,
Your hair,
Your thoughts,
Your walk.
The smell of you,
The smell of your hair.
The way you held me,
The way you smiled,
The way you looked at me,
The way you hugged me.
Your laugh,
Your smiles.
Most of all I remember all that you taught me,
And the love that you gave me.
Even though your gone,
I still remember…
I still remember everything,
I still remember you..

Thank you for reading