Sep 06, 2010 15:53
Most days, I really don't care. I don't think about where you are or who with. I don't think of what you might've gotten back into. I keep a constant thought of you and that I hope you're doing well and happy, but if I let it grow into anything more than that, it would be counter-productive and maybe you'd still have the hold you used to.
Today is isn't so easy. I feel as though we split up some friends, you take those, I'll take these. It's unsaid, but it still seems so. I knew it would be, so I'm not bothered or surprised. It's hard to keep a distance from everything when you begin to creep back in. There are some lines that I'd respect if you didn't cross, out of courtesy if nothing else.
With all of that in the back of my mind, things are still swell. Autumn is finally here and that's made everything even better. I have so much to look forward to with the band this fall. I still have a lot to improve, but I think that things are coming along nicely.