Jeez....
Well, it's been forever since I have updated mainly because I don't think anyone reads this thing. But writing to me has always been about release. I find myself typing out my feeling at work on break and I'm thinking, "Why am I wasting my break doing this when I can put it out for people to possibly read?". So here I am again just trying to release my feelings. My sessions usually turn into rants by the end but I have sever ADD so I can understand. Well first off I just want to say GW 04. Yeah. I think I'm one of the few anime loving, movie going, soda drinking teenager in the world that is a republican. I just can't wrap my mind around what the other side is thinking. And they are entitled to their opinion, religion, sexuality, whatever. As much as certain things upset me, we have the freedom of speech. And I won't ever wish that taken away. I married the only other republican I know my age. If everyone is so pro-abortion, and pro-gay, the human race will cease to be in 110 years. And liberal's are worried that we'll kill each other off with guns before that. I am pro-gun. I am actually about to buy one. For home protection. And I don't care what anyone says, Michael Moore is a genius. Not for his movies, but his editing, and controversey is amazing. He can take a 10 quotes from jesus and make it look like he's gonna eat a baby. It's amazing. Now for his message, eh...but like I said freedom of speech. http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0060763957/qid=1108795212/sr=8-9/ref=pd_ka_2/104-8165200-1592713?v=glance&s=books&n=507846 I think every one should at least look at this book. But the liberals will say that it's skewed. However conservatives say that about his movies. I can't fault the guy for knowing his audience. Like I said, he's a genius.
I can't stand people who feel that others who like a certain thing are childish. Books, movies, shows, just because someone watches a show doesn't make them stupid or an idiot. They just have different tastes than you. I can't stand people who cosplay, and think anime isn't anything big. That's like me making a Darth Vader costume and then saying, Eh Star Wars isn't all that great. It just doesn't jive with me. Putting up fronts is one of the biggest mistakes anyone can make because not only does it keep people from knowing you but once they do find out who you are, they are mad and they don't want to be friends. I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm tired. Maybe it's because I tend to dislike a lot of people. Being angry makes me tired. I don't want to be angry anymore. But with age comes realization of the past. I look at the times I've been trespassed upon and the times I've trespassed against others. But I have some ego, and can't bring myself to appologize to those I've wronged. Or I am still vengeful against those who have wronged me. I feel that it's a circle that can't end. I don't want to be the one to appologize but I feel that it is important to move on with my life. Let go of the hate. It doesn't seem to serve any kind of purpose except to dig you an early grave. Sometimes I cry because I think that I'm an evil person. I don't know why I think that but I do. To those I need appologize to, I am sorry if I have hurt your life in some way. I know a few people who I have hurt and I feel horrible about it. I make it seem as though it's their fault when in fact I am the person who has wronged you. I don't know. My heart hurts because I don't want to be mad anymore. I'm sorry.
Tom
I can't stand people who feel that others who like a certain thing are childish. Books, movies, shows, just because someone watches a show doesn't make them stupid or an idiot. They just have different tastes than you. I can't stand people who cosplay, and think anime isn't anything big. That's like me making a Darth Vader costume and then saying, Eh Star Wars isn't all that great. It just doesn't jive with me. Putting up fronts is one of the biggest mistakes anyone can make because not only does it keep people from knowing you but once they do find out who you are, they are mad and they don't want to be friends. I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm tired. Maybe it's because I tend to dislike a lot of people. Being angry makes me tired. I don't want to be angry anymore. But with age comes realization of the past. I look at the times I've been trespassed upon and the times I've trespassed against others. But I have some ego, and can't bring myself to appologize to those I've wronged. Or I am still vengeful against those who have wronged me. I feel that it's a circle that can't end. I don't want to be the one to appologize but I feel that it is important to move on with my life. Let go of the hate. It doesn't seem to serve any kind of purpose except to dig you an early grave. Sometimes I cry because I think that I'm an evil person. I don't know why I think that but I do. To those I need appologize to, I am sorry if I have hurt your life in some way. I know a few people who I have hurt and I feel horrible about it. I make it seem as though it's their fault when in fact I am the person who has wronged you. I don't know. My heart hurts because I don't want to be mad anymore. I'm sorry.
Tom