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[kinkykiwiw007]

i wish i could just break down but i cant. i wont allow myself. seems dumb yea, but i hope its right. sum ppl think im too complicated. eh, fuck them. 2day was ok. i was at sti's last nite & basically just sat around her house. then 2day we went 2 the mall & NO1 was there. then came back 2 my house & rode Max. then begged darren 2 go 2 the movies b/c otherwise it was gonna b just me, sti & my 'rents...which it was. i just wanna be around ppl. not 2 mention i missed my friend's show at Ray's. that convo w/ james really brought me down. maybe i brought it upon myself b/c im so accustomed to depression i couldnt stand bein nearly happy. i wonder if other ppl at skol can c wut im feeling, or do i hide it well. the only one's ive told about that horrible conversation r: u, sti & nae. altho sti & nae were very supportive cuz they actually read parts of the convo. he said that he loved mary more than any1 he had ever loved. that 1 hurt. y cant the past just die? i really hope i dont run in2 them this summer.

1 good thing that happened 2day: got some kewl kick-ass earrings. & there's only 2 weeks of skol left!

bye 4 now,
ber