I need a vacation...already!!!
Well, since coming back from the holiday break, I've worked more hours per week than before the break. I'm kinda getting the feeling this is to be my career with TSC. If I get promoted (which who knows if that will ever happen) I don't think my workload will be any lighter! I don't know if this is what I want but I'm not really sure what I do want which makes it hard to plan. I need some insight and I should have told the boss no and gone to ritual the other night. It would have been the right thing to do but I feel like such a patsy...damn me and my loyalty sometimes!
I haven't been talking much with the esposo lately and unfortantely I'm feeling the same old strain of relationship with him. It's getting me in a funk and I'm sure he's just oblivious to what I'm feeling. I'm not even sure what he's feeling. I'm so tired of being the one that has to bring things up because he always takes the stance, "well I don't have any problems but obviously you do." I hate that because he tries to turn it back on me. Sometimes I wish I were stronger. That I could summarily make a decision and follow through. I used to be able to do that...what happened to me! The beginnings of our relationship had it's moments but I was so sure that we loved each other then. Now I feel so distant from him. We don't get to do much together and every once and awhile, there are moments of feelings we used to share...then they fade and are replaced by bitter nitpicking...from both of us.
I'm making plans to surprise my father for his birthday in March. We're going to drive down and show up at the door with bows on. I'm getting him a deep sea fishing trip for his B-day. He loves to do that so I thought I'd get an extra ticket...maybe he'll take me or maybe my Mom and they can get away and spend time together. It will be fun to surprise him on his 50th. I don't think he suspects anything (eyes darting around.)
Still waiting for a lottery ticket that will be salvation for me and my friends and family. Keep that in your thoughts!
I haven't been talking much with the esposo lately and unfortantely I'm feeling the same old strain of relationship with him. It's getting me in a funk and I'm sure he's just oblivious to what I'm feeling. I'm not even sure what he's feeling. I'm so tired of being the one that has to bring things up because he always takes the stance, "well I don't have any problems but obviously you do." I hate that because he tries to turn it back on me. Sometimes I wish I were stronger. That I could summarily make a decision and follow through. I used to be able to do that...what happened to me! The beginnings of our relationship had it's moments but I was so sure that we loved each other then. Now I feel so distant from him. We don't get to do much together and every once and awhile, there are moments of feelings we used to share...then they fade and are replaced by bitter nitpicking...from both of us.
I'm making plans to surprise my father for his birthday in March. We're going to drive down and show up at the door with bows on. I'm getting him a deep sea fishing trip for his B-day. He loves to do that so I thought I'd get an extra ticket...maybe he'll take me or maybe my Mom and they can get away and spend time together. It will be fun to surprise him on his 50th. I don't think he suspects anything (eyes darting around.)
Still waiting for a lottery ticket that will be salvation for me and my friends and family. Keep that in your thoughts!