Heartbreaker...
So in my years of dating and having relationships I have ALWAYS been the one to be dumped. I always thought that was the harder side of it but now that I have left Adam I've realized it is pretty much equally hard.
Yes, I left Adam. I know I made it sound like things were doing awesome and wonderful but I think that maybe the first month I was with him it was exciting and new. He introduced me to all kinds of new people and a new way of life. The laid back island life. I really enjoyed my time in Port Ludlow I had a great job well not pay wise but very nice coworkers and plenty of great customers. But over the last several months since about Nov. Adam and I have been having a lot of problems. For one he is a heavy alcohol drinker, pot smoker, and occasional other drug usage. Which is not my think at all! I was trying to be open minded and I never want to be one of those girlfriends that changes someone to mold them to who I want them to be. But I realized all of are arguments were about things we wanted each other to change about ourselves and it just never happened.
All though I have made many good improvements with my self and changes inclucding, exersizing, I am down to 130 pounds!! My goal weight is 120 so if I keep up with my new healthy life style and stick with it I'm sure that will be no problem. I've also learned to manage my stress and illnesses muuuuuuuch better. I only missed work once because I had an ovarian cyst rupture a few weeks ago. It happened while I was at work and I tried to be strong and stay for my whole shift but my manager told me to leave and go to the hospital. They were very understanding about, they seemed to care about my state of mind and health way more than Adam ever did.
He was a nice guy but very involved with himself. Put himself first all the time, put me down A LOT and just over time I realized that he was NOT the right guy for me what so ever. SOOO
Last Sunday I told him I was leaving, he got really angry and all day Monday he was just mad at me, ever since then he just keeps calling and texting me saying that he misses me and wants to change so that I will come back to him, but I made it very clear that its not going to happen.
Anyways, I am doing really good I've only cried because I feel bad hurting someone who cares about me, even though he hurt me too. It feels wonderful to not be constantly worring about pleasing him and doing everything HE wants his way so that he doesnt drunken angirly yell at me. He was never physically violent with me just really mean to me with what he said and how he treated me.
So even though it has been hard to break it off I feel very good about myself for sticking up for myself. I'm tired of being the girl that gets walked all over and constantly struggling. I want to be able to take care of myself mentally, physically, and financially.
Right now I'm staying with some friends and looking for a job and place to live. I have a few good job oppurtunites. The one that looks very promising is at All the best pet care in lake city way. I use to go in there all the time when I lived in Georgetown and the manager really liked me and I actually was offered a job with them right before I left to move to port ludlow, I just called and she is still hiring but needs me to come in and update my application. They have benefits, AND I would get to work in an enviroment that involves something I care about, animals and there health and well being.
Plus besides my benefits I will be able to get discounts on pet supplies and food, which will help me out financially since I now have three dogs. My mom had gotten a bull terrier puppy a few months back and her fianccee changed his mind and realized that having a dog was too stressful for him and he couldnt train her at all. With in a week of having her she is potty trained, doesnt bite at all she use to do the puppy nibbles but those tiny puppy teeth can hurt so I've trained her how to be gentle with people. She also knows sit and is still learning shake and lay down. She is a wonderful little puppy and a good addition to my little family. Dakota and Bear love her they play wonderful together!
Anyways I know its been a long time since I've updated and I'm kinda writing about all kinds of random things I just dont have the time to write out EVERYTHING I've been through lately.
I just wanted to let everyone know Im back so I can see you all much more, and that I am doing really well and I'm finally happy with myself!
I'm interested in going to a dog grooming school which is in kenmore the only thing holding me back is finances so once I get back to work and start saving $$ it should work out. Even if I dont decide to do dog grooming as a career it will be lovely to learn all that stuff just for my own personal use and any friends or family who have pets and want cheap or free grooming and health tips!
anyways I need to get going, I've been away from internet and tv for 6 months start to feel lazy if I sit at the computer or tv for longer than 30 min, and I have soo much more energy than I use to since I've been walking and working out a lot. So I get antzy sitting still.
OH YEAH! I forgot to update about Bear, he is at the vet right now having minor surgery, He has had a small lump on his neck for awhile and I went in to get it checked out. The vet does not think it is cancer but would like to remove it and send it to a lab to get tested just incase. It is most likely just a cyst or something weird but not harmful like that. So once I get the results back I will update about it.
I hope everyone is having a good new year so far! and I will be updating more often now.
~Becky
Yes, I left Adam. I know I made it sound like things were doing awesome and wonderful but I think that maybe the first month I was with him it was exciting and new. He introduced me to all kinds of new people and a new way of life. The laid back island life. I really enjoyed my time in Port Ludlow I had a great job well not pay wise but very nice coworkers and plenty of great customers. But over the last several months since about Nov. Adam and I have been having a lot of problems. For one he is a heavy alcohol drinker, pot smoker, and occasional other drug usage. Which is not my think at all! I was trying to be open minded and I never want to be one of those girlfriends that changes someone to mold them to who I want them to be. But I realized all of are arguments were about things we wanted each other to change about ourselves and it just never happened.
All though I have made many good improvements with my self and changes inclucding, exersizing, I am down to 130 pounds!! My goal weight is 120 so if I keep up with my new healthy life style and stick with it I'm sure that will be no problem. I've also learned to manage my stress and illnesses muuuuuuuch better. I only missed work once because I had an ovarian cyst rupture a few weeks ago. It happened while I was at work and I tried to be strong and stay for my whole shift but my manager told me to leave and go to the hospital. They were very understanding about, they seemed to care about my state of mind and health way more than Adam ever did.
He was a nice guy but very involved with himself. Put himself first all the time, put me down A LOT and just over time I realized that he was NOT the right guy for me what so ever. SOOO
Last Sunday I told him I was leaving, he got really angry and all day Monday he was just mad at me, ever since then he just keeps calling and texting me saying that he misses me and wants to change so that I will come back to him, but I made it very clear that its not going to happen.
Anyways, I am doing really good I've only cried because I feel bad hurting someone who cares about me, even though he hurt me too. It feels wonderful to not be constantly worring about pleasing him and doing everything HE wants his way so that he doesnt drunken angirly yell at me. He was never physically violent with me just really mean to me with what he said and how he treated me.
So even though it has been hard to break it off I feel very good about myself for sticking up for myself. I'm tired of being the girl that gets walked all over and constantly struggling. I want to be able to take care of myself mentally, physically, and financially.
Right now I'm staying with some friends and looking for a job and place to live. I have a few good job oppurtunites. The one that looks very promising is at All the best pet care in lake city way. I use to go in there all the time when I lived in Georgetown and the manager really liked me and I actually was offered a job with them right before I left to move to port ludlow, I just called and she is still hiring but needs me to come in and update my application. They have benefits, AND I would get to work in an enviroment that involves something I care about, animals and there health and well being.
Plus besides my benefits I will be able to get discounts on pet supplies and food, which will help me out financially since I now have three dogs. My mom had gotten a bull terrier puppy a few months back and her fianccee changed his mind and realized that having a dog was too stressful for him and he couldnt train her at all. With in a week of having her she is potty trained, doesnt bite at all she use to do the puppy nibbles but those tiny puppy teeth can hurt so I've trained her how to be gentle with people. She also knows sit and is still learning shake and lay down. She is a wonderful little puppy and a good addition to my little family. Dakota and Bear love her they play wonderful together!
Anyways I know its been a long time since I've updated and I'm kinda writing about all kinds of random things I just dont have the time to write out EVERYTHING I've been through lately.
I just wanted to let everyone know Im back so I can see you all much more, and that I am doing really well and I'm finally happy with myself!
I'm interested in going to a dog grooming school which is in kenmore the only thing holding me back is finances so once I get back to work and start saving $$ it should work out. Even if I dont decide to do dog grooming as a career it will be lovely to learn all that stuff just for my own personal use and any friends or family who have pets and want cheap or free grooming and health tips!
anyways I need to get going, I've been away from internet and tv for 6 months start to feel lazy if I sit at the computer or tv for longer than 30 min, and I have soo much more energy than I use to since I've been walking and working out a lot. So I get antzy sitting still.
OH YEAH! I forgot to update about Bear, he is at the vet right now having minor surgery, He has had a small lump on his neck for awhile and I went in to get it checked out. The vet does not think it is cancer but would like to remove it and send it to a lab to get tested just incase. It is most likely just a cyst or something weird but not harmful like that. So once I get the results back I will update about it.
I hope everyone is having a good new year so far! and I will be updating more often now.
~Becky