touhc me baby, tainted love
well...as of tomrrow, Mike and I will have officiallybeen together five months.
I am, of course, happy, but part of me is also cautious...I have never had a relationship that has lasted this long...also...when I think back to the fact that he almsot broke up with me before the cheating incident...it breaks my heart...I don't want to loose him...but how am I ever going to shake my past fears? They're killing me. I'm trying to ignore them, trying to erase them...but I can't help it. I keep waiting for him to turn around and say "Gotcha." But that's not going to happen. I can't let it happen...
I want to kill the evil-slut-wet-fish-bitch that is lindsay (the girl he cheated with me on...from now on Lindsay Miller will be known as Lindz) but what else is new?
I can't help but feel like something's wrong...god...I want to be with him...but how long is it going to take for doubts like this to go away?
I am, of course, happy, but part of me is also cautious...I have never had a relationship that has lasted this long...also...when I think back to the fact that he almsot broke up with me before the cheating incident...it breaks my heart...I don't want to loose him...but how am I ever going to shake my past fears? They're killing me. I'm trying to ignore them, trying to erase them...but I can't help it. I keep waiting for him to turn around and say "Gotcha." But that's not going to happen. I can't let it happen...
I want to kill the evil-slut-wet-fish-bitch that is lindsay (the girl he cheated with me on...from now on Lindsay Miller will be known as Lindz) but what else is new?
I can't help but feel like something's wrong...god...I want to be with him...but how long is it going to take for doubts like this to go away?