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I have had it. Finally snapped. I want to go home for Christmas and that is exactly what I am going to do. I am making myself a doctors appointment so legally I can't get fired, and legally I dont have to tell her why I am going. I am actually going to get xanax or something for anxiety, because I hardly sleep at night, and my attacks are more and more common. I am also getting something for ADD, because I can sit in class no matter how interesting...and I will be off in my own world in less that 5 mins. But anyway...see I am not even on topic. There is so much corruption where I work, it is unreal. There are illegal things going on, favorites are picked, and my luck has it I am not one, I am probably on the very bottom of the list...because I am gay. But seriously...I mean I stress more about this job more than any other job that I have ever had...and that includes Wilmington Trust, and those times I got cussed out over the phone, and had to catch the bus at night downtown. My grandmother ask why dont I just quit and find something else...well because...there is no other place that will pay me 10 an hour and work around my schedule. This place is so fucking poor. 6.50 an hour to do the same thing I did back in DE where I was making 11 an hour. And no the cost of living is not cheaper and there is sales tax on everything. For $80, you are lucky if you get a weeks worth of groceries. (Considering that I eat cheese and meat). Luckily I dont eat beef anymore...but shit beef if cheaper than chicken now...I can get a steak cheaper than a pack of chicken breast...and both cheaper than veggie burgers. Was working on the smoking thing...but that didnt last very long...somthing about school, and habbit makes me want to smoke...and most of my friends live on the smoke deck so its hard not to smoke. Speaking of I am gonna light one up now.
Anyways..besides smoking my life if pretty straight edge... we cant bring alcohol in the dorm anymore because people are stupid and do things like cartweels off balconies. But Holly turns 21 soon which means we can get into more bars here so I guess we will go out more. I miss going out on weekends so much! I missed an amazing show (rehab) because of a money issue, I couldn't find anyone to go, and some bitch on the cell phone rammed my car at a stop light and I had massive pain. She was lucky that I got out of the car when I did cos Holly said she would have beat her ass, so then I would be spending the night at the jail trying to bail her out. She's not a bad ass or anything she just already had it cos we were almost in three other accidents earlier that day from people being on the cell phone and driving. I love what she said "If you were meant to use a phone while you drive, they would have wheels on the phone booth."
School...what can I say, it's school, I only have two classes, dropped one because it was photoshop and I should get credit for that because I took almost two years of it, and in video I probably won't ever need it anyways, and what I do need I know, and I will learn what I dont know in editing class. Video engineering which is terms terms terms. Modern and contemporary art, OMG okay it's usless, and the teacher well he says uhm and class too many times. I just want to do my two term papers and get out of that class already. My thesis..is how a certain artist contributed to the porn industry...whether or not it is plausable remains to be seeb, but he wants us to relate it to our major. Photography was the start of it all. Even if it wasnt intended...it happened. Still deciding if thats what I want to do after school. I know I will have to start out working for a station, but there are so many options. If I got into film, from what the film teacher says even a "below the line" (camera people, editing, etc.) can work one film a year and live comfortably, and an above the line (producers, directors) can work one film a year and live like a celebrity. Sad part is...the entertainment industry is about parties and drugs...so thats why alot of them starve. Good for me though cos my girl hates drugs so it will be easy to stay out...I like money and material things too much anyway to waste it all on meaningless things to put up my nose.
Oh yeah, and I love Avenged Sevenfold...that is one concert that I CANT miss (or I will die). This is when I love this city...all the bands (LOL and I still havent saw a single one) Is it strange that I am watching the chainsaw awards?? Couldnt miss my band! AND HOLY SHIT The Devils Rejects won the Killer movie award...Sherry Moon Zombie is fucking HOT.
Anyways..besides smoking my life if pretty straight edge... we cant bring alcohol in the dorm anymore because people are stupid and do things like cartweels off balconies. But Holly turns 21 soon which means we can get into more bars here so I guess we will go out more. I miss going out on weekends so much! I missed an amazing show (rehab) because of a money issue, I couldn't find anyone to go, and some bitch on the cell phone rammed my car at a stop light and I had massive pain. She was lucky that I got out of the car when I did cos Holly said she would have beat her ass, so then I would be spending the night at the jail trying to bail her out. She's not a bad ass or anything she just already had it cos we were almost in three other accidents earlier that day from people being on the cell phone and driving. I love what she said "If you were meant to use a phone while you drive, they would have wheels on the phone booth."
School...what can I say, it's school, I only have two classes, dropped one because it was photoshop and I should get credit for that because I took almost two years of it, and in video I probably won't ever need it anyways, and what I do need I know, and I will learn what I dont know in editing class. Video engineering which is terms terms terms. Modern and contemporary art, OMG okay it's usless, and the teacher well he says uhm and class too many times. I just want to do my two term papers and get out of that class already. My thesis..is how a certain artist contributed to the porn industry...whether or not it is plausable remains to be seeb, but he wants us to relate it to our major. Photography was the start of it all. Even if it wasnt intended...it happened. Still deciding if thats what I want to do after school. I know I will have to start out working for a station, but there are so many options. If I got into film, from what the film teacher says even a "below the line" (camera people, editing, etc.) can work one film a year and live comfortably, and an above the line (producers, directors) can work one film a year and live like a celebrity. Sad part is...the entertainment industry is about parties and drugs...so thats why alot of them starve. Good for me though cos my girl hates drugs so it will be easy to stay out...I like money and material things too much anyway to waste it all on meaningless things to put up my nose.
Oh yeah, and I love Avenged Sevenfold...that is one concert that I CANT miss (or I will die). This is when I love this city...all the bands (LOL and I still havent saw a single one) Is it strange that I am watching the chainsaw awards?? Couldnt miss my band! AND HOLY SHIT The Devils Rejects won the Killer movie award...Sherry Moon Zombie is fucking HOT.